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UNPUBLISHING IT GIRL.
          
          No dw, I will re publish it again:) what I am going to do is rewrite it bcs it's a sorry excuse of slow burn likeT-T 

I am ITCHING to write my other beyblade oc omg 

Little rant: so yk in chapter 23 I made minnie a fan acc? That acc usually posts updates of her in tournaments right?? I made that ad an excuse to include Minyoung art, and in the next chapter, sol.acewhispers makes another appearance for the exhibition match with new art^^ the things is is that while I was making art for the post, the artwork file got damaged. Yesi tried restoring it but it didn't work bcs it kept crashing, and then I tried every method possible. I cleared the cache, restarted it—nothing's working. My last hope is to contact the Ibis paint support team:(
          
          yes I will still update, I'm just sad bcs you guys won't get to see Minyoung and Oriana in the next update:( 

Yes I will elaborate more on my other ocs like Cammie and Lonnie, yes we will get shumin angst, yes we will get have sm girlhood moments, yes there will be a major event inspired by this one scene in gossip girl, yes Valt will call Minnie a liar, yes act 2 is messy af—yesss all this happens in act 2

Tryna post messages on other ppls msg board and they're no showing up whar

Oops almost published chapter 28 mb gng

Hi guys... Heh.... Ya'll miss me? (of ya'll didn't who tf am I)
          
          ANYWYAS, I KNOW I HAVNET BEEN ACTIVE LATELY</3 two weeks ago it was my birthday week, last week was sports week at my school, and this week is exam week. After this, I hope to publish all the late chapters, and I do ensure a word count of above 2500. What I cannot ensure is if I can publish all four chapters by next Monday.
          
          Please bare with me</3 love ya'll sm, thank you for all the support mwamwahhhhh

the irony of being a writer is getting praised for your talent, only to be disappointed or unfulfilled when reading your work.  
          
          as much as i as i like to tell myself that my published pieces are "decent", decent isn't good enough for me. i crave to feel the narrative lyric-like poetry that encapsulates vulnerability the way my characters think; only to fill in the pages with words i know is mediocre. but as the deadline of publishing nears, my creativity wavers. 
          
          the younger me would've laughed at me.  
          
          reading my old works, i can't help but crave to rewrite them all over again. rewrite the paragraphs, strengthen my sentences, increase the minimum word count because anything under 1500 words is too little. i'm a trained journalist—this should be easy for me to do. i've written twenty paragraph feature articles under an hour, but the moment i pick up the pen to write about minyoung's story, my drive and vocabulary is buried under the bones of my old self. but i'd rather believe that she's dead—because the thought of her being alive somewhere means that i've lost my creativity. 
          
          to the ghost that still haunts me, let me write the way i think. 
          so, mote it be.

I've been rewriting chapter 27 TOO. MANY. TIMES. SOMEBODY. HELP. MEEEEE AUGH. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MEEEEE<3