benny

hiiii pretty personnnn <3333
          from me to you with love ❤️
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/314468397-ryleigh

can't keep holding my breath god forbid you
          
          leave me like all the rest did
          
          im in love again
          
          and tomorrow i'll be sad
          
          yungblud is the loml. 

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          this is great. last week i fell on my arm and broke it and i got a cast on it bla bla that was the end of it and i was due to get it off in 6 weeks but last night it was KILLING so i went to the hospital and they said that it's healing incorrectly and the bone isn't lined up properly so i need to have an operation to have a metal wire into it? and that's tomorrow in the morning so that's just great 

trigger warning for kms thoughts?
          
          
          
          i feel like need to rant because that apparently helps and i guess it does and i need to get this out and no one on here knows me in real life so no judgement right? 
          
          i tried to kill my self two nights ago. i just can't do this anymore. my parents were so fucking disappointed and so am i to be honest. i was completely out of it for the whole day yesterday and my parents were told if there's no changes by the end of the week then they should just 'pull the plug'. im just so tired of everything. my older brother found me in my room (stupid mistake) and he doesn't even live at home he came to visit and he still hasn't come to the hospital to visit me so i've pissed him off. im just so done. of people leaving me. everyone expects so much and it's just too much. my parents will put on a huge show for the doctors like 'my baby you have to do everything to save my benny boo' but then just brought me a flowers bouquet and a card saying 'feel better soon' once they heard i've woken up. i've been struggling ever since i was child. from ptsd and homophobia because i knew i was gay from a young age but knew it would never be accepted.. so i kept it to my self. but when i was 11 i tried to kill my self and i wrote in my suicide note that i was gay and my parents have never been the same. they're the only ones that read it and ever since that they've never looked at me the same- there's a hatred look in their eyes for their child. they're disgusted by me. and speaking of that i never got any true help for that. i receive therapy every fortnight but that doesn't help. i was supposed to be taken to a psychiatric facility but i was 'too young'.. if i was given the proper help then it wouldn't be what it is right now.
          
          im just so done. now im actually going to be taken to a psychiatric facility ward thing in fucking Wales (at least 4 hours away from home). i just want to be happy
          
          aight that's it 

@larrysfearlesshabit no worries x

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