lucasss_tf
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I miss my brother so much even though I didn't know him that well. He's the only one who would understand what happened, he's the only one who knows what being our parents children is like ugh. He probably hates me cause I treated him like shit when we were little. I really wish we were close. I miss spending Christmas at my dad's place and making snowmen outta sea sand. I miss getting 3 layered pizza. I miss having ratatouille playing over and over. I miss sleeping on the couch. I miss playing candy crush on my dad shitty computer. I miss that shitty old apartment more than anything rn. I just feel like I'm missing out stg. I literally cried when i walked past build-a-bear the other day at the mall and though "I wish Aiden was here, I'd get him one" or seeing people my age have fun with their sisters and brothers. Literally everyone in my family fucking hates me. I don't think I've had a conversation with someone in my family that hasn't been awkward or made me mad. I'm happy my brother doesn't live with us though. He has a good life, a happy life with people who adore him. He has brothers who take care of him and parents who love him. I'm not even jealous anymore, I'm just happy for him. I wish I could hug him. I wonder If he got the letter I sent him last year. I doubt it but whatever
jukipatootie
@lucasss_tf hey, I accidentally stumbled across this. I am horrible at comforting anyone so please just ignore this if you want but I truly am sorry your life is like this. I'm sure soon, you'll be able to make up with your brother and he will forgive you. I hope everything goes better and that you have a wonderful Christmas. I can relate a bit to you, so I hate that someone else is going through this. I will pray for you and I hope you can find peace. Merry Christmas.
