Nixole

So damn sad 

Who will just sit and cry with me?

IM STUCK ON THIS DAMN UPDATE 

Loving friends is all you need 
          
          No it's not. Everyone says how loving friends is all that matters but it's not. The way my mind works is I don't remember the people who call me beautiful or smart, I remember the ones that didn't. I say it to myself, once I took a sharpie and marked everything I hated about myself while I sat in front of the mirror crying. Then I took the sharpest blade I could find and dragged it across my palm to make sure it would do the job. And I went over all 72 marks of sharpie. That's just physically. I still have some scars from it, who's gonna look at that and say "beautiful, smart, perfect," the truth is no one will. I'm so far gone, messed up in my own shit that I'm never gonna be happy again. Plastic smiles hide it for a while. Keep your eyes dry, wrists clean. They won't ask questions trust me. 
          
          I made that up in the damn 6th grade!
          
           You can't save me. 
          
           No one can save me. 

@macaronihoe sureeeeee

do you mind checking out my 5sos smut book? thank you 

Better off dead
          
          She cries
          The way she feels inside is too much for her
          When all you got is these four walls
          It's not that hard to feel so small
          Or even exist at all
          How come no one heard her when she said
          
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          If I was would it finally be enough
          To shut out all those voices in my head?
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          Better off dead!
          Did you hear a word
          Hear a word I said?
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          Gone, gone
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          
          She doesn't know she's beautiful
          'Cause no one's ever told her so
          And the demons that she hides are all she knows
          And maybe she can fall in love with someone in her life that she could trust
          And tell her she's enough (Will someone tell her she's enough?)
          How come no one heard her when she said
          
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          If I was would it finally be enough
          To shut out all those voices in my head?
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          Better off dead!
          Did you hear a word
          Hear a word I said?
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          
          When all you got is these four walls
          It's not hard to feel so small
          When all you got is these four walls
          It's not hard to feel so small
          All she wanted was to be enough
          All she wanted was to be enough
          So what does it take?
          Maybe it's not too late
          Yeah no one heard her when she said
          
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          If I was would it finally be enough
          To shut out all those voices in my head?
          Maybe I'm better off dead
          Better off dead!
          Did you hear a word
          Hear a word I said?
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          Gone, gone
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          Gone, gone
          This is not where I belong
          You gonna miss me when I'm gone
          
          ~sleeping with sirens  #sws

We need to talk about a shed kinda hot 

Why do we like to pretend its okay for people not to be okay? Why are we the ones to make other people not feel okay? It's not okay not to be okay. Everyone deserves to smile everyone should feel loved everyone should see the beauty in this world we live in. But sometimes we rob people of that and for what? To feel big to feel better? We could do that just by a look a word a touch. People need to learn we can feel better about ourselves and like a bigger person by our actions making other people feel good. And the fact that we can't see that is bullshit.

Where's my Keke at tho ?????