ka1wasn0th3re
HAIIIIIII
(This is Ramen but I just changed my username lol)
lulu_writez
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HEYYY guesss who’s back :p i’ve only been on ao3 lately my apologies </3 i don’t like posting fanfics on here that much anymore but i do have an original story that i might post :3 my ao3 has a LOT of new fics i haven’t posted on here, so if u miss my fics (u don’t…) then go check out lulu_writes on ao3 :D
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who saw kasa6 leaks.
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get your “i survived tadc episode 6” award here
no because. what was that. funnybunny can’t just die like that please. ily jax ily pomni ;(
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guys i have never vented or like asked for advice on this website so pls cut me some slack rq
so. i have a gf. my first ever gf. i’ve never been in a relationship, so like it’s really interesting. i had a crush on her for a while then confessed blah blah she said yeah and now im starting to doubt if that ‘yeah’ was genuine or if she didn’t want me to be sad since she’s my best friend.
i already had my doubts, as anyone with trust issues does, and now it’s like. i feel like im giving so much love and receiving none. i love her so, so much do not get me wrong, but i feel like im barely getting any of that back. and i wouldn’t want to call it her fault bc it’s not. she has strict parents as do i and i moved schools so we don’t see each other often anymore and it’s clearly hard to convey love through text but. i don’t know. it’s this weird feeling that she doesn’t love as much as i do. and it feels disgusting.
it feels akin to selfishness you could say. and i don’t ever want to be selfish, so i just tell myself it’s her way of showing love. but every time she sends a picture of herself i shower her in compliments, genuine ones, and when she seems just a bit off in the group chat i take my time to ask her if she’s ok privately. i send her a bunch of emojis and exclamation points and try to call often but. it feels like nothing is being said back.
on the rare occasion i face my insecurities and send a picture, nothing is really said. when i feel like sh!t and text dryly it feels like she moves on with her day. and i feel like ive been forgotten.
every time i host a hang out she’s invited, she goes places without me with OUR friends.
i’m her gf, and those are our friends. shouldn’t i be invited? or is it just because i moved schools?
i don’t know. but it feels disgusting. it feels like there’s this hole in my chest and it won’t go away.
sorry for that, it probably made no sense-
ka1wasn0th3re
@lulu_writez Yeah, as someone who is miraculously in a relationship,I want you to know that you deserve to be given the love you give. If you ever feel like things are getting out of hand, then calmly let her know, I'm sure if she really cared she would understand. I'm not too good at love advice and I'm sorry that's all I can give, but I really do hope things get better!!
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@pleasingshadow aaa thank you. this really means a lot to me ;) this is so helpful thank you so so much. as to answer the questions she kind of was a dry texter- and for some odd reason i had expected her to possibly change. and she does give different energy in person versus online so i think you’re right. i’m probably over analyzing the situation. thank you sososososooooo much and also i love ur fics ;D
ka1wasn0th3re
YO
Have you accepted my PJSK friend request yet??
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MURDER DRONES COMIC COMING OUT IN FEBRUARY NEXT YEAR HOW DO WE FEEL
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i just rewatched murder drones i’m so sad why did it end </3 i love you N pls i can’t live without you
ka1wasn0th3re
@lulu_writez I would cry if I rewatched it- Idk just knowing that things END makes me sad-
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i jst pulled shadow milk guys i screamed sorry to my household idrc :3
ka1wasn0th3re
@lulu_writez Tbh I did too when I pulled shadow milk and it was the funniest thing ever-
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL SON RUI IM SORRY EVERYONE I HAVE BEEN LAGGING BUT I HAVE SOME ONE SHOTS IM READY TO POST OKAY PLS DONT KILL ME