𝑅𝒶𝒾𝓃𝒶🦋🫧

When your family only acts halfway decent to you when they want $ from you. :)

I got done watching the Dahmer series yesterday… Evan Peters needs an award and a break baby cuzzz but yeah it was good I’m not gonna give away too much lol.

Dream today.. or last night rather.. something about my grandma talking to my deceased aunt on the phone… it wasn’t like she was alive in the dream either… like it’s like if you’ve seen the black phone movie it’s essentially that we were using the phone to talk to the dead anyways and I don’t remember really any of their conversation but I know that when I wanted to talk to her she told my grandma no & that she wanted to talk to my brother j instead lmao but than here’s where the dream got really weird.. and like essentially turned into sort of a nightmare idk.. but after my grandma got done talking to my aunt..she started talking to her dad who is my great grandpa  and this time I did get to talk to him and I told him how I wish I could of met him in real life.. and he said something along the lines of “well why not? Follow the bull… come visit me” basically telling me to k*ll myself… see shits weird right?  and I got angry and told him I wasn’t gonna follow the bull lol and than every time I have these dreams that turn weird or into nightmares I wouldn’t say that I’m always aware that I’m asleep but what’s weird is after they turn bad… I’ll move my neck to try and “snap out of it” so idk I feel my neck moving in this weird angle during my dream but I also feel it irl… I also feel like sometimes demons visit me in my sleep but irdk I’ve been dealing with this kind of stuff for a long time now and idk what it exactly is.. I’m sure a lot of people like my family members would just say it’s nightmares but sometimes it feels like more than that.

Alright So no one reads this stuff anyways & I usually always write out my
          Dreams on snap.. but I don’t have storage lmao so anyways idk y I keep having dreams about my old best friend but I do.. let’s call her H.. in case anyone does read this but anyways we were both at this cookie place and her dad asked me what I wanted but seemed annoyed with what I picked and then later on I found out H recorded me in the car when I was looking busted and posted it on TikTok.. and than we ended up cutting parts of each other’s hair off?? & than I remember going to my sisters but the vibe was off and weird… than I was with someone else I forgot who but we were painting these Peter Pan figurine things and than I was walking outside singing and this girl told me I had a beautiful voice :) anyways… the end Lmao.

So Yesterday… my  evil cats brought a baby jackrabbit into our house   who still had its eyes closed and was tiny as hell… and today it passed away and I’m very upset.. RIP Harley I’m so sorry we couldn’t do enough for you poor baby…  

Hi you guys I just wanted to say… If there’s any book of mine  that you check out… check out stay.  :)  thank you! 

Current mood: Missing Nacho Fries… & Wanting it to be October already 

Rip guppy known as ghost by the rest of my family….. hope ur ok in cat heaven 

Just woke up gasping for air because I had a nightmare where it felt like I had woken up but than my body was like twisting around and a demon voice came out telling me to pray… so…  

Cinnamon applesauce is one of my favorite things in the world and Idk if this makes sense but it just tastes like Christmas <3