mariaaa

i have a disgusting boobless assless horrible nauseating ugly skin hairy horrible horrific body. 

this is the first time i’ve ever told anyone abt how insecure i am and i rlly feel like deleting it before they see it

not me having another depressive episode around my friends lol yk how hard it is to be smiling rn

im slowly losing all my friends lmao

i feel like shit, it feels like all my friends are movin on without me. they have memories and inside jokes without me, they go out without me, and they will definitely find new friends without me but truly it’s all my fault lmao i sabotage myself by not wanting to talk to any of them most of them time lmao i’m pitiful

help i’m in dire need of vmin fanfics i’m going through a vmin phase rn but i’m not finding any good vmin fics HELPPPPPP

it’s funny how i’ll tell my best friends it’s ok for them to share whatever they want bc no one will judge and we trust them but i don’t share anything i’m rlly struggling with :( it’s not that i don’t trust them, they’re the ppl i trust the most. it’s that i don’t want to seem weak and i don’t want ppl to think i’m more insecure than i already am, i don’t want pity and much as i would love the attention

i got all dressed up, i wanted to make myself feel pretty but all i feel is empty :( i don’t only wish i was pretty, i just wish i was confident :/ 

i get so jealous of ppl for them being able to live themselves and feel confident and post pictures and i even get jealous of the fact that they can express their emotions bc ik i cant :/ i hate myself for it

i just realized how sad it is that i comment on how much i hate myself on here, but no one sees this so it’s either here or a diary and i’m too lazy for that