Hello everyone,
First of all, I'm sorry for not replying to your messages and comments earlier. Due to a health issue, I was inactive lately. But now I'm alright and coping with personal things.
I've stopped writing for a while because I'm unable to even if I try.
As I used to write mostly at night (precisely after midnight), that part was also becoming another issue for me. From past 5-6 years, I haven't had a proper sleep pattern, and I never bothered to change because I didn't feel the need. But now I do. My mind, conscience, and body no longer cooperate the way they should (it may sound like a joke or mess but it's really true and the grossest part). It has contributed in taking a toll on my physical and mental health.
With many priorities lined up, I continue to feel like I've lost my productivity every day. And when I'm failing at my "must-do" list, the guilt doesn't let me do anything else either. Jo mujhe karna chahiye, woh mai kar nahi rahi hu, aur jo mai karna chahati hu, woh bhi mujhse nahi ho raha hai.
Writing is something I can't force, and I need my mind at peace to start with it. I want to be at a better place, maybe refix my routine entirely, and then find time when I can write without guilt and stressed mind.
Currently I'm struggling with the hardest part — acceptance and changes. About the next chapter, I'll probably be able to update in Jan 2026.
Hoping for the coming year to be kinder and to guide me back here with the best possible comeback.
Till then,
Thank you. Take care.
Manya
