call me زارا / mabuchi, 19, she/her. 

a teenage girl with too many thoughts and not enough pages. just a girl with an unhealthy attachment to words, and old music.

i write girls who mistake pain for love, boys who weaponize affection, and relationships built on obsession, manipulation, and the fear of being abandoned. ruined devotion, beautiful cruelty, and the kind of love that leaves scars long after it ends. my stories are messy, emotional, and written from the kind of loneliness teenagers never really talk about. there's always something aching underneath every chapter.

Jacob Elordi, For inspiring me since the very first story I wrote in 2017. You're one hell of an actor. Every character in my story is imagined through you, even the villains.

still growing, still learning how to turn overwhelming feelings into pretty sentences.
maybe this account is just proof that i survived another night by writing it down.

"even the gods loved cruelly." - greek myth

fiction only. reality is far less poetic.