maddy_willow

Memento Mori

maddy_willow

They say that going on big crazy trips has a tendency to change a person. For a while I've admitted to having problems with my mental health within the last year or so, but never actually acted on it. That tends to reflect in my writing and it doesn't necessarily make me a bad writer, but I do like to be open and honest about myself, because of the effects it has on my writing. After traveling to London I've realized that I have not been taking care of myself mentally, physically, or spiritually. I have little motivation to actually change it, but I remember how good I felt when I used to work out. I want to start again, I have just been lacking motivation and feel so burnt out. Family has not been helpful. I have no idea what I want to do in life, but they constantly push me to get jobs that I don't want. I'm constantly stressed about my financial situation. I don't expect any sort of pity. I just hope that people can understand my mental state and why sometimes I write the way I write, or why sometimes I lack the motivation to get chapters out. This is a monster that only I can face and I just need to start motivating myself to be better and to take care of myself. I hope y'all take care of yourselves too. ~Maddy

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Can we talk about how much ADHD sucks? Throughout the entire year I've been having the worst writers block of my life. There are so many stories and ideas that I start but never finish. More recently I've been getting more motivation out of writing my latest story "Vox's Assistant" for some reason. I've become obsessed with the character ergo I want to write more about him. Why tf am I like this? Idk, maybe I just like writing smut and soft shit. 

tawanajones89

@maddy_willow i understand what your going through and i have ADHD also i found out for me when you get out of things you remember it and then you get re-obsessed with it, and it gets stronger each time.
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SilverDust2k1

I know I had another comment on here somewhere. But I had just finished the mchanzo demon books. Absolutely loved them!!!!! I've read your mer Hanzo and McCree one and I enjoyed that one. I was hoping you had a recommendation or possibly other overwatch fanfics

SilverDust2k1

@SilverDust2k1 same I have one I'm working on I had apparently started putting it on here but I'm gonna update it soon as I actually start chapter two
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maddy_willow

@SilverDust2k1 I have had a vision of my own fantasy novel that I've been trying to write for years but I keep putting it off. It's something that I've never been able to finish because the plot is a bit messy. I'll definitely finish it one day.
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SilverDust2k1

@SilverDust2k1 honestly I love my fantasy
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SilverDust2k1

I have a possibly stupid question but it's been a day at work. I was wondering what the first book was to 2 demons? Atleast I'm presuming there's a first book I saw the second book tag in the title when I went to go read it

SilverDust2k1

@SilverDust2k1 I'm reading to die for and honestly I should have read it before your mchanzo ones I was just reading. I about died laughing when I got to jack getting decked by McCree. Lol how do I know this becuase as I'm reading the dialogue between Gabe and Jack, I'm like this dialogue sounds familiar-ish then I started reading the dialogue between Gabe and Jesse and I'm like OMG this is the memory Jessie recounted to Hanzo! I love it!!!! 
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SilverDust2k1

@maddy_willow oh exciting!!!! I'll have to read it after the one I'm on
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maddy_willow

@SilverDust2k1 it's called Lone Wolves. I do intend to finish it but I don't know when I will
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