justhereforfun

its the third of december n i still don't have a sweater :(

okay so there is this girl that i like but i'm pretty sure she doesn't like me back bc she treats me in a very platonic way, and she's bi, so my friend was like "at least she's not straight so it's possible for her to like you" but i feel like it would be better if she physically couldn't like me rather than just not liking me bc im not good enough. anyways, idk why i. wrote this but how was y'alls day?

i never understood "only know you love her when you let her go" till now

YALL I FOUND A WAY TO CHANGE Y/N TO MY NAME OFMG AHHHHHH

ugh help. something is somehow wrong on my wattpad. it won't let me see my inbox or notifications. like i can see the orange dot and the number of messages and notification but when i click on it it's just a white screen. it's the same on my phonw and computer. how do i fix it???

ok here come a few more stories since i'm bored

OH EHM GEE  the funnniest thing just happened. me and. my 10 yr sister  were making beaded bracelets and necklaces and i made one that said "gae" with rainbow colors on each side. i bring up to my room and my sis comes in and she says, really nervously and timidly "um, lilah? that's not how you spell gay. It's spelled G-A-Y. " I just smile and go, "oh, don't worry. i THINK i know how to spell gay." and then she just gives me a wierd look. I laugh it off and ask her why she seemed to scared to tell me and she goes "i didn't want you to get mad if u told you it was wrong" AND THAT'S ON HAVING ANGER ISSUES ✨but actually i would never get mad over that i just thought it was funny and cute, but then she asked WHY i was making a necklace that said gae and i panicked and told her my friend is gay. OH THAT REMINDS ME OF ANOTHER STORY. wow tnight i'm on a ranting fire. well maybe because i haven't seen my friends in a while. anyways next story is on how i found out nobody in my firnd group is straght

i've been thinking a lot, and honestly i think i'm a lesbian. at first i wasn't sure if i was lesbian or bi, but for some reason i;ve alsways the the word lesbian for myself better. tbh i probs should of known when i felt like that fit me better. anyways i read this lesbian master doc which was super helpful but now i have this thing: coming out. i don't necesairly need to come out but i don't like feeling like i'm hiding a part of myself but at the same time it kinda feelss insignificant. my parents aren't exactly homophic, just kinda hetereonormantive and i'm not sure how they'll take it, though the thing that scares me the most is my GRANDPARENTS. i love them and i don't think they be too openly homophobic they would just stop coming near me. also, i feel kinda weird sometimes using the word "lesbian" because it has become so sexualized and fetishized (idk if that's word) also my if i told my friends i think some people in one of my friends groupd would stop giving me hugs and touching me which suck because touch is my love languege. anyways, i know i'm pretty lucky in the whole lgbtqia+-phobic family area. thanks for coming to my ted talk

black hair + green eyes + nose peircing(s) =  perfection

i'm debating whether or not to write down all my problems on wattpad since no one knows who i am