magenta_cheesestick3

hmm does anyone want to talk about how they're terrified of life after high school and college and about how they're not really sure what to do and as a kid thought independence would be great but now that I can drive and stuff it means I should find a job which I am terrified to do because a. I don't want to work and b. working would probably involve interacting with people. also school is stressful even though I'm perfectly capable of doing better but choose not to for the sake of my mental health and also I'm just generally lazy because I was "gifted" in elementary and middle school so now I don't know how to genuinely work since I no longer know everything and pick it up quickly and now *TW* that school has started back and I'm stressed out and worried I've started wanting to cut again even though I've been clean for like a year and over the summer started getting out of the habit of immediately wanting to self-harm every time something goes wrong and also J2M/SPN is practically the only thing preventing that because every time I look at my poster of J2M I think of Jared's struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts and how I can't do that because he wouldn't want me to ALSO I can't talk to anyone about this cause only two people know about my self-harm and I don't want to annoy them cause I feel like I bother them enough already anyways how's everyone else doing :)

FeirceAngel

Honestly, I graduated this year and got my first job, and now I’ve been promoted. I struggle with anxiety and depression too, so this promotion has really been weighing on my mind a lot. Anyways, I’m probably the last person who should give advice. The only advice I can try to give is to breathe, try to relax, and realize that your situations may be out of your control, but the way you react is up to you. (TW) I also struggle with cutting, I was doing quite well for a few years, but I’ve since relapsed and felt like doing it again. Whenever I feel like doing it, I try to play music that uplifts me and I’ve been distracting myself from the thoughts in my head. 
          	  If you ever need to talk, just pm me and we can chat. 
          	  Just know that you’re not alone, even when it may seem like it. :)
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magenta_cheesestick3

hmm does anyone want to talk about how they're terrified of life after high school and college and about how they're not really sure what to do and as a kid thought independence would be great but now that I can drive and stuff it means I should find a job which I am terrified to do because a. I don't want to work and b. working would probably involve interacting with people. also school is stressful even though I'm perfectly capable of doing better but choose not to for the sake of my mental health and also I'm just generally lazy because I was "gifted" in elementary and middle school so now I don't know how to genuinely work since I no longer know everything and pick it up quickly and now *TW* that school has started back and I'm stressed out and worried I've started wanting to cut again even though I've been clean for like a year and over the summer started getting out of the habit of immediately wanting to self-harm every time something goes wrong and also J2M/SPN is practically the only thing preventing that because every time I look at my poster of J2M I think of Jared's struggle with depression and suicidal thoughts and how I can't do that because he wouldn't want me to ALSO I can't talk to anyone about this cause only two people know about my self-harm and I don't want to annoy them cause I feel like I bother them enough already anyways how's everyone else doing :)

FeirceAngel

Honestly, I graduated this year and got my first job, and now I’ve been promoted. I struggle with anxiety and depression too, so this promotion has really been weighing on my mind a lot. Anyways, I’m probably the last person who should give advice. The only advice I can try to give is to breathe, try to relax, and realize that your situations may be out of your control, but the way you react is up to you. (TW) I also struggle with cutting, I was doing quite well for a few years, but I’ve since relapsed and felt like doing it again. Whenever I feel like doing it, I try to play music that uplifts me and I’ve been distracting myself from the thoughts in my head. 
            If you ever need to talk, just pm me and we can chat. 
            Just know that you’re not alone, even when it may seem like it. :)
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FeirceAngel

Thanks for the follow!!!
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magenta_cheesestick3

Whoops that unfollow must have been a mistake. Let me fix that (:
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FeirceAngel

Oop, never mind it must have been a mistake. XD
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