Makida John

 Another reason is the reaction, the "We're always here if you need help" face. Even if you "lied" about things I can understand you why you did it. You were fucking alone and needed someone but you had nobody. And girl, you're worth a lot of things. It's not because you made a mistake that you're not worth living in this planet. I always say to myself "Sofia, to get better you first need to get worse". Everyone has sins and everyone makes mistakes. It's impossible to be perfect without having imperfections. But anyways, I wanted to let you know that I'm always available if you want to talk about things. I don't want that anything bad happens to you because I partly know how it feels to have depression and anxiety. I really do care with all my heart!❤ And I know you're important for one of my friends so you're important for me too! Continue writing, it helps a lot believe me. -With love, Sofia

Hey! Ik heb zo veel te zeggen aan jou en je weet dat het voor mij een beetje moeilijk is om in het Nederlands mijn mening zeggen. Dus zal ik het in het Engels zeggen. First of all I'm sorry you had to go through a lot. I'm not in the best situation myself but mine started a few years ago. I'm glad you decided to write about this. I write a lot too it helps me you know. I know you're saying that nobody can understand you and I know I can't understand how it feels to be in that situation but I know how it feels to be bullied and how depression and anxiety feels. I know how it feels to have so many problems and so many thoughts that you forget the feeling of happiness. You just forget how love feels. And the worst thing is people pretend to care about you but in reality they fucking don't care. People only care about people they love. Sometimes people are so fucking selfish and it gets to my nerves. And then there is the pretending, pretending everything is alright, pretending you're happy, pretending you're doing good. And you only do it just because if you tell them the truth, how you feel, what you're thinking about, how you are, they still wouldn't care about you.