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Kids want to be seventeen. Adults want to be seventeen again. But teenagers hate being 17. Ironic isn't it?

Sejujurnya, aku juga penat. Aku juga rindu. Aku juga hilang arah. Aku rindu kau, R. 

See I think, thinking about sadness makes me crazy. But it also comforts me in a way nobody knows how to. So yeah, if you see me sad then I'm actually comforting myself. Lol.

Oh, how I love him.

I'm freaking crazy. 

It's the fact that we will never forget our first love. I'm not really a fan of that fact but I make do with it. It sucks. I often wonder what he's up to but it's not really 'i'm in love' kind of way.

Are we a burden? Why have 5 kids if you're going to be retired parents when your kids are still kids. My little brother and I have it worse than my 3 older siblings. My father, refuses to send us to school despite us not having a van/driver. My mother cares more about her students than her own kids. So tell me, are we a burden? Not acknowledging our struggles is probably the worst thing parents can do. I hope you guys that read this live a long and happy life.

How am I ever going to prioritise deen over dunya when I can't let go of zina? Help me. Please help me.