I've made this profile so I can write what I feel, and not have people getting angry. 

No one I know knows I've made this profile. I've hinted, but they don't know for sure. 

I started high school and life went crazy. Family fell apart, I met a guy, lost a guy, wanted a guy. Lost a friend, made a friend. And all the while, I've been trying to find myself. It's been a downhill roller coaster from there. 

I care, perhaps too much, about my school work. I am frantically keeping my grades high and my GPA above a 4.0. 

I am so self conscious. People say it's why no guys ever talk to me. I'm just not okay with myself, and I'm trying to figure out why. Perhaps it's my weight, or my hair, or my face, or my clothes, I just don't know. 

I have an addiction to food. 

I really like reading and writing. 

I care about others more than myself, and it causes problems sometimes. 

I'm learning Spanish. 

...maybe I don't like myself because I cause others so much hurt. 

Kit Kats are cool. 

My self control is slowly deteriorating. 

To put it simply, I want what I can't have. 

Read my one and only book Re(a)lationship. 

(I mean, I write others on an alternate profile, but that's another story.) 

I don't like to show affection to family members... It makes me uncomfortable. 

To all my friends who find this profile, I do love you all. 

We all love that beautiful Kansas sky. 

Thank you to the Wattpad community for supporting me through everything. 

Loved/Hated/Manipulated

P. A. L. 


*yes, I know my initials spell pal.

This girl I think I know makes covers and writes on her profile: livelove_write