mariannara

Today's song recommendation is Stuck With U by Ariana Grande & Justin Bieber ♬⋆.˚

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Let’s be real guys.. turns out, dating someone older isn't even that bad. Especially if he has money. No, I’m not a gold digger. Just being realistic.I mean, who wouldn't want a mature, financially stable guy with a steady income?
          
          No, I haven’t thought that far ahead yet. Plus,, he understands that I’m still young and still have big dreams to chase. I don't depend on him. But it looks like I won't be letting him go anytime soon..hehe:p

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Here is a funny story that I feel like I just have to write down here. so, I was pouring my heart out to my mom about him this night. I was crying and asked her for a tissue. Instead of comforting me,,, my mom scolded me and said I should have never gotten close to him. She said "he is handsome, but he is way too old for you."
          
          Right then and there, I burst out laughing just because of the word 'old' hahahahah come to think of it, she's right. This is my first time dating an older, more mature guy. 
          
          And now we are just not on the same page
          
          But—
          
          the weird thing is, we are still together until now. Yeah, right now. there was no breakup, no official end, and no over-the-top drama. Well.. maybe I'm the only dramatic one here. But we just keep going with the 'let's just see where this goes' vibe.
          
          Come to think of it, it's pre-funny and actually quite exciting to have so many challenges in a relationship. And I finally realized that this is exactly what keeps me hooked on him. It's never boring..though it definitely tests my patience sometimes

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I guess he's tired.. no, both of us are tired. trying to force something that's not meant to be. We're selfish. it makes me remember what my mom said—how stupid I am. I already knew he was just.. playing around. but I’ve already fallen too deep for him :( oh God.. this hurts so much