marvelous__fangirl

Idk if i put the announce to followers for the last announcement so I’m putting it here SO PLEASE READ THE LAST ONE!

Ik that not many of you read ,,life is not all roses” but if it sounds interesting do u want me to continue it any time soon? I mean imma finish it regardless of ur opinion because it’s an important story to me but like r u guys gonna read it?
          
          For those that are lazy it’s a completely texting based story between two teens (Penny- 14 and Andy-17) who are friends for a log time and the story will cover the last 6 months of their FRIENDSHIP) so you will se how they bond and how weird of a relationship they had and stuff like that. 

Why is my love life such a mess?
          I was out with 3 of my friends (let’s call them A,B and C). B is my bff. A and C are together because B and I put them togerher. We were at this cafee thing and B was sitting on my one side, C on the other and A was across from me. In one moment C moved closer to A. We constantly joke about B and I putting A and C together so B and A joked how A is gonna cheat on C with B. B moved on my other side saying he moved so he would be closer to ,,his love”.  He was sitting way closer to me than to A and A asked him which ,,love” he meant. I told him to move a bit forward because of that comment, because I don’t want to see us that way, but A literally threatened him so he wouldn’t move. I wanted to kill A so bad but I couldn’t because on multiple occasions it seemed as if B actually liked me a bit.... i am confused af...

Guys.....
          ARE ZENDAYA AND TOM A THING OR NOT!?!?
          I’ll go crazy with all the theories I swear...

I am starting to think that my best guy friend is starting to think that I like him in a not so friendly way...

Sooo about that guy from the last post...
          I do like him and idk if that’s a good or a bad thing. 
          
          Also, the ,,best friend” I mentioned aka the one who was hitting on him? They are ,,dating“ since this Saturday. She literally stabbed me in the back. Everyone could see that I liked him just from the way I talked about him and she started dating him? What kind of a friend does that!? And she even isn’t with him because she likes him but because of his looks... and I have to correct myself from the last post he doesn’t have ,,the looks”   He is completely average but that average is beautiful to me. 
          
          Today he came to my school to spend some time with his old friends and while we were going back home with two other friend and the ,,best friend”, and even during the day (because it is the end of the year we spent all day outside) I swear I caught him looking at me MULTIPLE times... And I don’t mean just an accidental look, no I mean LOOK at me. 
          
          There is this one saying in my country : ,,what a person dreams, a person sees” and I swear to God if this is it I’ll kiłl myself..
          
          At this point I really don’t know if God is punishing me or somehow blessing me.. 

Connecting to the previous announcement (,,my life is falling appart” part):
          Multiple things are happening but imma start with the biggest problem:
          1) I am trying to get into one of the best high schools in my country and I am under ao much stress and so much pressure and this one teacher really isn’t helping me at all. 
          2) A week ago I saw my ex on a bus after 5 months of no contact and that really shattered all the progress I’ve made because he overall looked so tired and idk it just broke my heart seeing him like that even tho he was an asś. 
          3) there is this really cute guy that I’ve been seeing in the bus often and he is very very pretty and I don’t mean just to me I mean he has THE looks. Anyway I think I’m starting to like him?
          4) khmkhm that guy up there? Yeah I forgot to mention that he is my friends brother. 
          5) khmkhm again that guy up there? Yeah my ,,best friend” is hitting on him while she’s literally texting 4 other guys that she likes. She was literally texting one, waiting for the other, looking at the third and talking to the fourth a few days ago! So she can’t let me have this one guy I genuinely like? Something that happens once in a decade to me? 
          6) she was texting with him two days ago and for some reason she mentioned how I (she didn’t mention my name) said he was pretty and he answered ,,yeah I know. -my name-, right?”I never told him my name neither has she and I never told his sister ehat I thought about him! HOW TF DOES HE KNOW MY NAME?

I already wrote this but wattpad is a piece of shît and deleted it because it was ,,too long” so I’m just gonna write it again but shorter and leave out all my frustration...
          
          I want s normal mother am I asking for too much? 
          This morning she came to me in the middle of my breakfast and told me to go get some water. As everyone would, I finished my breakfast but she got mad and got the water herself because I didn’t leave in the middle of my breakfast. 
          She just called me on my phone but I didn’t hear it because the ringtone was off (because off school) and then she called on the home phone. I told my brother to go and bring me both MY AND THE HOME PHONE because I was playing with our puppy on the terrace. He came back with only the home phone and that wouldn’t have been the problem hadn’t the bîtch I call my mother for some reason hung up and hadn’t the idiot of my brother previously answered the call. My ,,mom” came running back home (she left for her job) and came to me and started yelling at me because I was outside while my neighbors were making bbq and because I said I was gonna kill my brother because he answered the phone to a possible who knows who and because she is ,,sick of me” (thank you it’s mutual) and she is sick of me because I didn’t watter her flowers. You know why I didn’t watter the fucking glowers? Because I forgot. You know why I forgot? Because I am finishing 8th grade and I’m trying to get into one of the best high schools in my country to make veryone proud and she just doesn’t seem to understand how much pressure and stress that is putting on me. Do you know why else I forgot? Because my life (social and non social) is falling appart (That is the next announcement ). 
          
          I am really sick of her and my life and just everything. 

I am really feeling worthless these past couple of days.. no one listens to anything I say and even when I catch a little bit of their attention they tune me out after like 5 seconds. Even my parents! And I’m also worthless because I am incapable of doing even the simplest things such as making pancakes. Like who can’t make pancakes!? And I’m worthless for a lot of other reasons but I am not gonna rant thank you bye imma go and cry in the shower

My mom woke me up at 5am to clean my dogs poop from the livingroom floor... 
          
          
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          5AM!!