@mathhomeworkandtears
Hey guy's if you want to read some real good hot stuff, dark romance, spice hate love story then this is it for you, you might not want to miss out on this book
: "sweetest Omen -(chasten series -1) " by V_sherri on Wattpad https://www.wattpad.com/story/377823065?utm_source=android&utm_medium=whatsapp&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=V_sherri
Wooooo 3 chapters, unedited and written half asleep but 3 chapters nonetheless! Thank you lord for small miracles
Hope u enjoy them, more drama coming soon lol
@mathhomeworkandtears SERAAA omg so recent 19 mins I'M PROUD OF YOU I DIDN'T KNOW YOU'D B WRITING ANYMOREE GLAD YOU GOT TO GET INTO IT A BIT PLUS MADE 3 !??! looks like someone's still interested in (*checkspronounsrq*) her book LMAO small miracles -- love that explanation for that
Hi sorry for posting without your permission, I wish everything is going well there. ❤️ I would love feedback from an amazing writer like you! ❤
If your time permits, then please give a try to my book. The concept is different! ❤
I hope you guys will like the tangy taste of teen with a bitter pinch of pieces of broken hearts ❤️❤️
Happy Reading
https://www.wattpad.com/story/335763523-we-live-under-the-same-sky
Yay, new chapter for double life. I sincerely hope you find my blob of misery on digital paper at least somewhat entertaining.
Exam season is finally over, it sucked the life out of me but life can be rebuilt. I've missed you all here. How is everyone? Will check in again tomorrow, and will try to be more present. I love u all, sorry for sucking all the fun out of a book by updating once a year xxx
ohmygosh no that "blob of misery" was a work of pure goodness
also congrats on finishing ur exams- they can be a pain
@mathhomeworkandtears SEERAAAAAA !! glad to hear from you again !! hope the time you been taking off was doing you well ♥ welcome bacccc !! -ish ? lol that'd be great if you can (checc in this soon) but ofc, no pressure N take time if needed AND CONGRATSZLE YAYAYA !! sounds exhausting N stress glad it's over now very kewel you got to get through it did you grad ? or still not yet ?
Missed you guys lots. It's exam season rn so we're struggling, but I'll update soon. How's everyone doing? <3
@mathhomeworkandtears same !! (to last part) ♥ and damn did exams fr go on since april all the way till now (*me counting the days then realizing all I have to do is say "now") tyy I'm alr ! thankfully for the most part it's been a lot and a little lol (new perfect explanation)
@Sweetghouls hey dude! thank you, it was incredibly stressful but I'm finally done hooray lol how are you? hope you're doing well. I've missed talking to u
@mathhomeworkandtears GASP HELLO !! glad to hear from you again again lol hope all goes well with your exams !! sounds stressful smh
Posted part 16 of Double Life, so for anyone who reads it rn I just want to let you know I'll get back to everyone when I get the energy. Love you all lots. Hope everyone is doing well. <3
@mathhomeworkandtears yayayyaya seraaaaaaa ! ! ✨ hope you're doing well as well N ty for informing again
In a few days it'll be three months since Mylo passed on. I want to write something heartfelt and meaningful and as beautiful of a sentiment as he deserves, but tonight I am just tired. Grief is funny and obnoxiously unpredictable; one moment you think you could be okay and the next it hits you like it just happened all over again. In between those moments however, is deafening silence. You're body can only cry so much until the tears just stop coming out, and you can only feel so much until you feel nothing at all. So for the majority of time, it's just deafening silence. In every sense. No tears, no guilt, no grief, no yearning, just nothing. And somehow that silence is so much worse than the noise.
Tonight is silent, so I'll sit with it and I'll try to let it pass. It hasn't gotten any better, and life hasn't been the same since you left. It's been unbearable. Until I can visit your grave, I hope that, wherever you are now, you're safe and happy and eating all your favorite tuna treats. I hope you're playing with all your favorite glass marbles that were so noisy I wanted to put them away everytime you found one, but I never could when I saw just how fulfilled you were by this small, insignificant piece that nobody stopped to look twice at. With the sound of that glass ball rolling against the ceramic tiles you reminded me to slow down and find peace in the little insignificant pieces. I hope you know the impact your presence had on this world and how deeply and unconditionally you were loved.
I would give anything to wake up to the sound of marble on ceramic tiles again. I love you and I miss you endlessly. You deserved so much more than just two years.
@mathhomeworkandtears am glad as sometimes reading my things back it can sound cringEe LMAO but un ✨✨ I luv the luv ty
@Sweetghouls it's tough, but messages like these keep me going sometimes. thank you. sending you so much love. <3
@mathhomeworkandtears that was nicely said I don't know what else to say silence as well and I agree I'm sorry it's turning into that that's literally one of the worst feelings as always, here if you need lettuce make light shine through the glass like that marble (il that memory) ♥
To anyone who's interested, Absent Hearts is back up. Unedited, just as I'd left it. I'll update both books now as I go, on my own terms, at my own time, that's the only guarantee I can provide.
@Itz_Essence It's alright. I did get your email, I think yeah Wattpad will have to do for now. Thank you love <3
@mathhomeworkandtears I also got ur message on insta, idk how to use WhatsApp :/, I hope u got my email bea we can always just use wattpad to talk if this is the only way u feel like u can be active <3
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Needless to say, the grief is back, this time it shatters me to my core. Every single day. I don't know how to be anymore. I knew the universe had it out for me from the day I was born but goddamn, you didn't have to include my friend. He was so young. And so special. I know everyone says this about their pets, but Mylo was an angel sent to earth, unlike any other animal I've ever met. Now he's everywhere and nowhere to be found. His fur still on my clothes, his toys still scattered on the ground, his photos still on my wall. His treats left half eaten. Song lyrics that now come close to describing the astronomical amount of love I had for him, and the abundance of grief I'm now paying with.
Mylo, my only love and my best boy, you taught me the courage of stars before you left. Your light carries on endlessly, well beyond your death. I still close the kitchen door like I used to, and tell myself you're just sleeping in one of your favorite corners. I don't know where you are anymore. But I love you, and I miss you forever. I hope you know how proud I am you were created. Until we meet again, I will keep you with me everywhere I go.
Rest easy buddy, I love you until the end of time.
I don't know how to keep moving beyond you.
May 15th, 2020 - August 25th 2022.
@mathhomeworkandtears bro I'm so glad to hear that when it comes to these types of situations of which someone moreso needs comfort rather than advice, it can get hard and feel as if you're saying the wrong thing because you're never sure what they need to hear especially as it gets hard for the person to know what they're feeling to begin with and I'm glad you saw it when you needed it most and don't worry at all -- trust me -- take as much time as you need -- I def understand as you've informed us -- till then, will keep the convos we had active in my mind lol but unlol of course -- I can imagine -- and really ?? wow -- I heard too that you shouldn't go back in a burning building for a pet ?? that's so weird that they're put in the category as a toy (and even if if a toy is special, it can't be replaced and I will understand the grief) -- perhaps those kind never had a pet or they lost someone and find it hard to compare -- I'm glad to understand N I hope more do ♥
@Sweetghouls I read this back when you wrote it, and you have no idea how much it meant to me. I'm sorry I'm getting back to you this late, I couldn't reply when I first saw it and I've been trying to manage ever since. Thank you so much for everything, this message especially. You have no idea what it means to me, especially that no one seems to considers the loss of an animal a valid form of grief. Thank you for the paw patrol band aids and every heartfelt conversation we shared, I appreciate every word. And especially thank you for remembering Mylo. I'm trying to manage in any way that I can so that I could keep his memory alive, until we meet again. I hope you're doing alright too. Take care <3
@mathhomeworkandtears bro this is actually making me tear up that's very rare despite me feeling for people -- I acc had to stop reading for a bit I get how that feels all the mchecking way it unfortunately can't be promised it'd get better but it can't be promised it won't so keep hanging on -- you're the only one who can help yourself to find the better which I feel he'd want and hope for you to (and ofc there are things that can help with you helping yourself) and I hope that you don't give up again in fear of the pain because even though it may not be worth it it's not worth not trying either cause that's also a kind of pain I really hope and have hope too that you can find a way to keep moving it's def hard right now but I really hope n have hope it will get better in at least some ways other ways that you feel you do know how to be and I'm here for if you ever get shattered again or need more help on it to, what I hope I can, help you pick up pieces it won't be perfect, and it won't look the same as it did before but it'll be fixed in the best way it can and still shine and sparkle through the sunlight with a paw patrol band-aid that and some other band-aids I stole from the doctors office ♥ it may peel off but we can always get another and you have to be there to help yourself get it too because in the end, you are the one thing besides a pet that you can truly rely on -- that you'd need for in case the helpers run out of bandages or aren't able to be there to give one it's important to find many things to rely on for moments like those good hopes to you and good thoughts to mylo who will truly always be loved and never forgotten
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To say that I'm shattered would be a gross understatement. I haven't known how to live since. I was already drowning in my own misery, then the universe took away my buddy. I am in pieces. I had spent the last 5 years of my life avoiding any love I was offered, because I knew in a sense, when the fun is over, grief is the price we pay for love. I sabotaged friendships, relationships, stopped talking, stopped replying, stopped seeing people, stopped taking chances, stopped living completely because I had learned early on that nothing was ever worth feeling this type of pain again.
Mylo was the only being I allowed myself to love, because I thought he had a lot longer. Persians live at least 10 years, the average life span being 14 years. That was more than my age when I got him. I thought, it'll be a long time before he had to go, and I was gonna make his time worth it. Then he died, in the worst way that a living being can die. Mylo was the kindest, gentlest, sweetest little boy anyone had ever seen. He cuddled with me more times throughout the day than I could count, he let other cats steal his food, and instead of getting mad at them, he pet them gently with his paw. He felt my sadness, and at my lowest he would stop eating, he would cuddle with me and sleep next to me until I was all better. He loved tuna, and chicken. He loved glass marbles, sitting in windows and playing with dream catchers. He never hurt a soul. Heck, he was scared of birds. He was the goodest boy. My lifeline and my best friend.
adding on
even our life is going to be over so in a way, based on that logic, it's like saying it's not worth being happy at all
there was a quote like "I would rather have loved than not at all" something like it pre sure everyone heard of it
at first I was kinda like hMmM cause I was thinking of the pain too
but then I thought of well -- everything I'm saying rn lol unlol
but in this case it's moreso abt thinking without that pain that loving-with-an-end comes with you'd be at peace w everything
but as mentioned there's always something that you'll need to be happy that something will be destroyed n something else you'll always need for it
@mathhomeworkandtears mb if the spams of words like "yeah" may get a bit annoying to read also - my vocab is yes
@mathhomeworkandtears damn -- that does take a lot to do ----- !??! only 2 years !??! I thought you meant 2 years in pet years wow that seems even sooner than it seemed ----- wow that quote -- I understand all of that -- I'm glad he was able to give some time that was the best -- can imagine how relieving it sounds to have felt wow really ?? I was just wondering too (abt the vet thing) that's weird perhaps maybe it helps more not knowing cause if you knew for example you feeding him something was the cause can cause guilt ? / more(?) definitely get that -- the fact you weren't even able to hold him -- the fact no one could help in any way etc. -- just seemed like all was helpless except for the fact that everyone was there trying N wishing can still feel that way since it didn't seem it did anything but -- was the best you could do after all N you did similar to when someone doesn't know how to help you but tries their best to do what they can nonetheless y'know