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Nearly 2026 and still no boyfriend :') I'm literally almost 23 and the only romantic prospect I had this year (or since I was 10) was a SCAM that makes me cringe every time I think about him and how he literally used all my insecurities against me. My only 'romantic' experience. I fear I may never find love. I'm so lonely.

I never imagined that my first conversation with Nina Nesbitt would be because someone was impersonating ME under HER posts on Substack...

Guys, I got Wimbledon tickets yesterday! I'm soooo excited! Centre court on day one! It doesn't feel real. A lifelong dream <3

Being brutally honest? I think I've stopped reading and writing because romance is my favourite genre and reading and writing about what I crave and desire so much just really hurts me. The love between my characters? That's what I want. I honestly sound sooo pathetic but this is my one place to vent. I want a boyfriend. I want to find my person. I want to experience gentle love but I'm 22 and never even held hands romantically, been on a date or been kissed. Everyone around me is in a relationship or getting engaged and it makes me question what I've done to be so undeserving of it. Anyway, going to stop crying now lol. Maybe you'll see my work again when my dating life actually exists lol.

Are the Strictly judges on a wind up tonight? George Clarke last?? Yeah, no chance.

Harry Lewis is a beautiful human being.

It's my mum and dad's wedding anniversary today and she just very kindly reminded me that in their wedding pictures, she's the same age as I am now. Lovely reminder when I've never had a boyfriend before or even had my first kiss. 

I had a dream that Jannik Sinner had a crush on me (I love dream version me and the confidence that she has) and he got upset because I wanted Carlos to win the US Open lol.

Current obsession: Arthur TV <3

I was offered a job after months of searching and having two trial shifts with them and now they're ghosting me? Why is my luck so bad?