mattycash

Hi, my loves! Long time, no speak :'( I apologise for disappearing from here. I've had a lot of stuff going on. Some of you might know already but my uncle was diagnosed with a brain tumour in July 2024. It was incurable so he slowly deteriorated until the beginning of January 2026 when he was admitted to hospital before being moved to hospice. We were visiting him daily, making a four hour round trip to see him. He unfortunately passed away at the end of January. I obviously needed a lot of time to grieve the loss, spend time with my family, support my dad who lost his brother and on top of it all, my brother and I are in the midst of marathon training to fundraise for a charity who helped my family a lot throughout my uncle's diagnosis. It's been a lot but I'm hoping to come back because I do miss writing and interacting with you all. This is my safe corner of the internet <3

mattycash

@samfenders thank you so much, b <3
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mattycash

@Karlijn_KxFxF1 thank you so much, I appreciate it <3 it's a crazy challenge!
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samfenders

Sending love to you all <3 best of luck for your marathon! X
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mattycash

Hi, my loves! Long time, no speak :'( I apologise for disappearing from here. I've had a lot of stuff going on. Some of you might know already but my uncle was diagnosed with a brain tumour in July 2024. It was incurable so he slowly deteriorated until the beginning of January 2026 when he was admitted to hospital before being moved to hospice. We were visiting him daily, making a four hour round trip to see him. He unfortunately passed away at the end of January. I obviously needed a lot of time to grieve the loss, spend time with my family, support my dad who lost his brother and on top of it all, my brother and I are in the midst of marathon training to fundraise for a charity who helped my family a lot throughout my uncle's diagnosis. It's been a lot but I'm hoping to come back because I do miss writing and interacting with you all. This is my safe corner of the internet <3

mattycash

@samfenders thank you so much, b <3
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mattycash

@Karlijn_KxFxF1 thank you so much, I appreciate it <3 it's a crazy challenge!
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samfenders

Sending love to you all <3 best of luck for your marathon! X
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mattycash

Nearly 2026 and still no boyfriend :') I'm literally almost 23 and the only romantic prospect I had this year (or since I was 10) was a SCAM that makes me cringe every time I think about him and how he literally used all my insecurities against me. My only 'romantic' experience. I fear I may never find love. I'm so lonely.

vogves

surprised myself for the first time these past 2 months with a guy that it seemed that it would go in to bf status in the new year, but was ghosted!! meet his friends and everything lovebombing a lovergirl was a bad mistake! hot girls are single going in to 2026! it ain't easy❤️
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Dancer9816

Girl I’m 27 and I’ve been scammed too many times 
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mattycash

@_bella_angeles_ 2026 will be our year!
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mattycash

Being brutally honest? I think I've stopped reading and writing because romance is my favourite genre and reading and writing about what I crave and desire so much just really hurts me. The love between my characters? That's what I want. I honestly sound sooo pathetic but this is my one place to vent. I want a boyfriend. I want to find my person. I want to experience gentle love but I'm 22 and never even held hands romantically, been on a date or been kissed. Everyone around me is in a relationship or getting engaged and it makes me question what I've done to be so undeserving of it. Anyway, going to stop crying now lol. Maybe you'll see my work again when my dating life actually exists lol.

mattycash

It's my mum and dad's wedding anniversary today and she just very kindly reminded me that in their wedding pictures, she's the same age as I am now. Lovely reminder when I've never had a boyfriend before or even had my first kiss. 

trentizzy

@mattycash Believe me, ur still young! Focus on ur university first, n when u graduate, then think abt getting into arelationship. In my opinion, the right age for that's around 25 by then, u will have lived ur life well before stepping into the world of responsibilities
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mattycash

@trentizzy that's sooo true! It's so tough being a hopeless romantic these days though. I see my friends settling down and it makes me want it even more.
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trentizzy

@mattycash Dw girl. I’m 18, n my mom got married at this age while I haven’t even had a male friend yet. No men no problems
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mattycash

Current obsession: Arthur TV <3

mattycash

@kayla2509 yes! I've been watching them on tik tok for sooo long but loving their YouTube videos atm! It reminds me of the OG British YouTube <3
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kayla2509

UK YouTube is honestly top tier!!!
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