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miclst

well, this is where it started. now if you came to me with a face i have not seen, with a voice I've never heard, i would still know you. our first interaction was..meaningful to say the least. there was a moment when I thought we could've met in better circumstances but then I asked myself, would I like it any other way? no. we instantly clicked, build this emotional bond, shared stories abt our life as if we've known e/o for long, all of this overnight and right at that moment, with you talking away, I felt light. 
          2 years later, we are still growing, still learning, adjusting to new routines, learning from our mistakes and still not changing, making bad decisions, getting to terms with our problems, not giving up even when all we wanted was to end it and sm more. ALL of this together. the only regret is not being to change no matter how much we've grown as a person, which btw I'm very proud of and happy to be able to witness it all. 
          this year however, was just..to put it in one word seemed "impossible" to push through. quite literally with the highest highs and lowest lows. i've never felt more upset in my entire life. knew the answers to the what "ifs" ig and the reason why i felt that way or what caused it but it felt like i could not be happy anymore.

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miclst

 been questioning everything in my life at this point, felt sick and mentally drained (still am). I've cried, a whole lot, over literally nothing and missed the times I've lost long ago more than ever. but, throughout all this, you've kept me sane in a sense. whether it's for the moments when I just needed to vent or simply talk abt nothing and make jokes which aren't funny. you haven't just held me all this time but went through everything with me, with a hell lot of problems yourself and nothing does justice to describe how grateful I am to you. to think I almost lost you, physically hurt ngl. I don't care what happens, I'll never leave you and let you forget what we have. let's be together for the rest of our lives, learning things at our pace, enjoying lil moments, and most importantly "live" not just survive this time. can write a whole book about us tbh. here's to another new start of finding ourselves, struggling, discovering and growing all over again. I love you. happy new year<3
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