It is far to difficult to try and understand my personality without meeting me, which is why i'm not going to waste neither your time nor mine trying.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am no there. I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glints on snow
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the soft stars that shine at night
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
i am not there. I do not die
-Mary Elizabeth Frye

P.S I am not suicidal or believe I am somehow eternal