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Thank u for 1k reads on Fragile :')
          
          Update coming as soon as i can, promiseee <3

Hey would you like if you read my books and follow me too.

For @taehyeongkang .
          
          I could write a million messages, each one similar to the last in sentiment. They stay the same, only the word arrangement changes. And it always comes down to one thing - I miss you. You deserved better. You should be here. Ultimately, no one knows if that is selfish or not and even if it is, well, to hell with the rest of the world and their opinions. You should be here. I miss you. You didn't deserve to go, Taehyeong. I'll never forget the way your updates would make me smile and laugh, the way I genuinely felt your comforting and beautiful presence through my screen. We weren't that close, but I wish I’d made more of an effort to get closer to you... Maybe then I could've provided you with some comfort similar to the comfort you provided me. Today is the last time I can visit your profile for a while, because it just hurts too much to be going there everyday. So for now, this is a goodbye for me. But that does not mean I’m going to forget you. I’m gonna post this on my own profile too, because that way I won’t lose this in all the comments on your profile. I scrolled all the way down today, right down to our first interaction… If only I could’ve known then how much you were struggling, maybe I could've helped you. It's one of my biggest regrets. So from now on, I try to live by this: ‘Regret the things you did, not the things you didn’t.’ I’m sorry I couldn't help you, Tae. I wish it could've been different, we all do. You should be here. I miss you, and I'll never forget you. You should be here, but you are not.  I love you from the deepest part in my heart, and I always will. I hope you're smiling down on us & resting well up there, one day we'll be together again. I love you, my beautiful Taehyeong, and I always will.
          
          Maya.

The jikook moments we got today in the memories dvd...wow. It just baffles me how people STILL deny there is something special between them. Regardless if it's romantic or not, jikook have a beautiful & rare relationship and it's so amazing to see the love they have for each other. Honestly, I wish that one day I will find a relationship similar to jikook's, becauase it's incredible. They spend so much time together, yet they're never tired of each other, they make each other laugh and smile so much, they're always there for one another when they're down and they support each other in absolutely everything they do. Jikook love each other, romantically, platonically, IT DOESNT MATTER. You can't deny it. And if you do, then I'm afraid you're the delusional one ;)

If you read fragile and have been wondering why it's taking YEARS to get an update out I'm soooo sorry ... I've been super busy and just haven't had a chance to finish editing :( 
          
          I'm gonna try my hardest to get an update out but pls don't hate me if it's still a couple of days from now... 
          
          love you all
          – Maya <3

Listening to Jungkook's cover of 'Only Then' hits different after seeing that YouTube edit of Jikook (link below it's so beautiful) and knowing JK basically sang this song to JM at the 2018 MMA's :') 
          
          https://youtu.be/RJF3xWmvan8 

me: changing my location thingy LAST NIGHT to 'jikook r backhuggin as u read dis' cos I thought it was cute
          
          bighit:gives us a bangtan bomb THE NEXT MORNING where JIKOOK ARE BACKHUGGING AND CUDDLING AND BEING ALL CUTE
          
          me: psychic powers confirmed pt2. 

imagine a few days ago I was talking to my friend and i said 'its been a while since we've had a backhug'... and THEN WE GOT ONE...
          
          BUT, imagine I ALSO said it's been a while since we've had a vlive..... WE GOT A VLIVE...
          
          
          TO CONCLUDE, I AM PSYCHIC. 
          

I'm finally gonna update fragile today - sorry it's been like 10 years oops :')
          
          

SO JIKOOK HAD A FIGHT ABOUT SOMETHING AT THE STUDIO, THEN JIMIN RUNNING AWAY ANGRILY IN THE RAIN, THEN JUNGKOOK CALLING HIM TO APOLOGIZE WHILE CRYING BUT DOESN'T KNOW WHERE HE WAS, THEN JIMIN WANTING TO PICK HIM UP, THEN THEY FOUND EACH OTHER AND 'SLAM DUNK' (JIMIN'S WORDS) HUGGED IN THE POURING FUCKING RAIN. 
          
          OH AND THE MEMBERS REACTION SAYING 'ITS SOMETHING A COUPLE WOULD DO' AND 'ITS LIKE A KDRAMA SCENE'.
          
          HOW DOES ONE PROCESS THIS INFORMATION ???!!!!???
          
          jikook if ur listening we need the whole mf story pls thank u