maybankwalker

watching 10 things i hate about you
          
          is it just me or does mason thames look extremely like to heath ledger??

i miss tiktok’s feature where you had to manually get rid of the deleted tiktok’s in ur saved videos. it was such a therapeutic activity for me

i want it to be halloween
          
          i want to have halloween plans 
          i hate that im introverted with no friends. my only plans for the past like 5 yrs have been decorating and watching movies alone
          
          i wish tx would cool TF down so it’d actually feel like fall when it’s supposed to  

Hi, will you be updating your one tree hill fanfic? No rush/pressure ofc 

they’re really taking everyone but you know who

are u gonna update the one tree hill “so high school”?? plss

Uh sorry 
          Are you gonna finish people help the people? Criminal minds  fic?

okay, so i’ve been thinking a lot since i did finish obx. and i have decided that i am NOT writing season 5. maybe one day in the future (not soon) i’ll change my mind, but i do not have the energy for any of that. i have not been that inconsolable from a tv show since i binge watched this is us which RUINED me. like i get so attached it makes me feel like i’m grieving people i knew when it’s literally just fictional characters.
          
          i think focusing on grief so much is so very draining and i lowkey think i have like unresolved issues/trauma with death/grief cause even after watching it i went down the path of crying over my dead grandparents and dogs. which can make it both easier and harder to write. i already get so into it when watching, i’ll get 10x more into it when writing. plus i’ve got a million other things to focus on and other sad stories i can do (looking at you 13rw), i just cannot afford to depress myself like that rn. 
          
          so i’m gonna finish jade’s story and for the rest of the stories, we’re gonna go with the alternate ending where everybody lives and they all end up happy and rich, yay!!
          
          between obx, and losing dolly parton and tim curry, this week SUCKS!!!!

NOW TIM CURRY IS GONE 
          
          WHAT THE FUCK 

obx…
          
          like on the one hand, i’m glad they didn’t riverdale it cause that show’s crazy. but on the other hand, i wanted them to riverdale it so badly lmao