hi, i honestly don't know how to turn these thoughts into words. but i just want to update this feed. i wasn't able to publish anything last sunday because i was busy with something-- perhaps my mind is occupied with the thoughts of survival. i just graduated last wednesday and now i am in a dark road of finding my way out. out of the circumstance i have put myself into, and into the path i am about to take. I'm currently facing the challenges of a fresh grad and it's quite a bit overwhelming lol. i just hope the world would be kinder to me. this message may not be for anyone but maybe it's for myself. I'll try to update as soon as I can :)