i just feel like i’m so unworthy of being loved mainly because how i am and my attitude i don’t have much green flags, im a walking red flag and my parents don’t let me date and i just feel hopeless because when i was a younger i’d imagine what it’d be like to fall in love for instance when i first watched big time rush aka the band i saw this friday and gave me post concert depression i fell in love madly with kendall. and in the show he had a gf, the first time i saw those two i experienced the thing butterflies everyday in my diary i’d write how much it would mean to me to fall in love and have something like that no matter how cheesy it is. When i got to elementary school i had a crush on the guy who played soccer but it didn’t go well. In middle school, i had my fair share of having crushes as well and in high school i had my first bf ofc but when i told my parents about him i was forced to break up with him and i was heartbroken because he made me truly happy and even though some people say falling in love during highschool is overrated it’s not to me because i’ve been feeling about these things since i was a kid since i was 6 or 7. I remember this one guy telling me “you only like it when guys give u attention” that sorta is true i won’t deny but i just am so sorry because i really want that type of love someone to love me, hold me, be there for me. that’s why i’m like always saying i want a bf and i’m alone and i’m sorry to everyone because this is so annoying to hear isn’t jt?
