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Pls update limits
          

I UPDATED LIMITS! And I will try to keep it that way. I'm sorry I (almost) failed you!

I know and I hate myself because for a short time I thought zayn was singing harrys part and then I found out it was harry and I was like FUCK I don't know my own son's voice :( but omg people on Twitter have allllll these theories and like my head is fr hurting from thinking of all of it honestly this week has been so stressful lol :(

OMGG BECAUSE ITS MY FAVORITE SOMG IT MEANS SO MUCH TOO ME I DIDNT EXPECT MYSELF TO REACT THE WAY I DID :( but hearing it hurt my heart like so much more I am such a mess I still can't believe this is all real like whyyyy tf :(

I got home and I heard once in a lifetime and I'm so sad like I'm glad I'm home alone right now because I sound like being tortured it hurts so much I can't believe he's not in it anymore I love him so much and I'm probably being dramatic but I can't help it I feel so empty im crying and screaming looking at vines and tumblr and Twitter and I CANT FUNCTION

I KNOOWZHKAU IT SUCKS???!!! and I was taking a fucking midterm when I finally finished and I saw my mom texted me a facebook link and I'm like shitttt it's probably about his cheating scandal becus she hadn't said anything about that to me but it was a link that said its official that he quit but it was Perez Hilton so I'm like nahhhh whatever that's bullshit then I logged into my Twitter and everybody was saying shit and going crazy and I was like FUCKKKKK IS THIS REAL I was this close to crying like 5 times the tears were starting in my eyes but I kept forcing them down and my heart was shaking i went to the restroom just to cry and then I met up with my friend later and talked it all out IM SO SAD I WANTED TO SEE HIM AGAIN ITH I JUST GOT HOME AND IM CRYINH IT ALL OUT KISTENING TO DRAKE MY LIFE IS EMPTY

And regarding my story, I'll keep writing it - sorry I've been off lately - and it's going to feel weird, but I'm going to finish it. I'll understand if some of you don't want to read it any more, but I hope you'll stuck with me :)

First I felt nothing, because I couldn't believe it. Now I'm extremely sad, because 1D has been an important part of my life for many years, but I support Zayn to the fullest. I hope he'll recover soon and be as happy as he deserves. I just hope that we, their fans, are aware that we are allowed to feel sad and to mourn; I'm seeing people making fun of this in Twitter, and they just don't understand. It's the same reason why I can't publicly admit that I write 1D fanfiction. People would never get it. So guys, just feel whatever you need to feel and cry if you have to, and then recover and remember these amazing five years when One Direction was formed by five people. Our experience as fans gathers everything we've gone through, and not just today. All the support to Zayn and 1D. x

looool and that's fine as long as you're doing well! take your time x :)

*rihanna singing* where have you beeeen? ;/