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TW: Sucied attempt, self harm, vent, and not so happy feeling 
          
          
          
          Honestly, I don't know if I can keep living. I know probably nobody cares or want to hear his bit I just need to get this off my chest. Last summer I tried ending my life . I gathered all the pills I could find and shoved them downy throat...which uhhh didn't work and made me really sick to the point of vomiting but whatever. In summer I was at a place that didn't have a lot of stuff but now back home I can't help this ich...like id be better off dead then alive.  It's sometimes consumes to the point I look at my balcony and wish I was jumping off.  My parents are toxic so i can't ask for help. My friends watch me bullied and don't do anything about it which hurts like hell because when that happens to them am the first to be by their side but when Miss [ Readected] calls me fat and tells me to lay off the food because I look like a pig with clothes. No one bats an eye " Oh I really don't want to pick sides"  says the friend that I have known for FIVE YEARS. I already have a severe eating problem. I know I shouldn't lisen that I shouldn't care. But it hurts every fucking time. I can't take it anymore. I try to make myself useful, learning hobbies and what people like. Am currently trying to learn another language and gather some money so when I see the chance I can run as far as possible. But I don't think I can stay alive until then....ANYWAYS if you read until here thanks for letting me feel heard :)

May change accounts because my phone stopped working  :/

Nevermind I changed it

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Did u get the Wattpad back- (dis Mimi✨)

I deleted everything

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