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I just realized something really sad. I can count the amount of people I’ve ever thought of as a friend on one hand. Of the five, one was toxic, one was the my-age-sibling of my older sister’s friend and we were kinda forced together (we lost contact before the first grade) Another one moved away in first grade, and we haven’t talked since. One attended my school for one year in the seventh grade and then moved away and we haven’t talked since. The last friend I met in the second grade and is only one I still think of as a friend and see semi-regularly, and they have other, more important friends than me.
I’m so fucking lonely.