megmog98

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Holy shit you guys, I start college on Thursday

megmog98

umm hello everyone, i know it has been a very long time since i have been on here, and I dont blame any of you if you have left me, but there is a reason as to why i have been gone for so long, which i am about to tell you.so for about a year now i have been dealing with depression, some days are ok and i smile every now and again, others are horrible, i find myself crying most of the time, sometimes for no reason, and the simplest remark can leave me broken on the inside. I have found that i would rather be isolated from everyone, and have lost all interest in things i used to love, such as wattpad. About 9 months ago, i started having suicidal thoughts, and that it would be better to just die, than feel all this pain. Due to these thoughts tormenting me every waking second, and the depression, i started to self harm about six months ago, and still do. Brown Eyed Girl, was me expressing my feelings, how i was feeling, and what i was doing to myself. Due to my depression, my sleeping pattern is all over the place, i have been gaining and loosing weight. Only recently have i confessed to my mother how i have been really feeling, and about my self harming, i am now having therapy to help with my suicidal thoughts, depression and self harming, for i truly do want to get better, i want to feel like me again. Im not promising that i will be updating regularly but if it is one of those good days, and i feel like it, i will update. I hope to get better soon, so i can start enjoying my life again.
          see you soon
          Megan xx

megmog98

Hey guys, I know Ive been gone for a while but I've had a lot of things happen, i was ill for like a week and wasnt eating and was constantly sleeping, then my nan was rushed into hostpital and then ive just had a ton of school work, but I'll be back soon with something new that may just surprise all of you :) xxx

TheWolfAndTheGirl

I hope that your nan is ok. Glad that your feeling better! Glad your back :)
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