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Their happiness makes me remember why I work hard. While I know they're still proud of me, it still can't pulled me out of the failures they didn't know about. 

I've been losing motivation for a while now. Their hopes and dreams can't lift my motivation. Where can I find it?

When you are in rush, but your companion is as slow as a dying turtle, you can either wait for them and squeeze their small head in your imagination or just leave them behind. Hah!

When people are being rude to you, just be nice to them, maybe they'll realized how they behave and regret it. 
          
          But if they think they are entitled to act that way, then slap them... Slap them as hard as you can. Even if you still unable to slap some sense into them, at least you have slap the shit out of them.

My anger level
          
          Level 1: short, double mean reply; mildly annoyed, still tolerating your shit.
          
          Level 2: no reply, late reply, one word reply; very annoyed, choose your conversation carefully.
          
          Level 3: mean scowl, obviously annoyed, lightning and thunder; shits about to hit the fan.
          
          Level 4: nicest smile you've ever seen, soft spoken replies, politest replies even though you know you don't deserve it; you're dead. Ragnarok is coming and he's taking you down to hell.

Im missing my families, but I don't want to tell them because it will make them worry, and I don't want that

Everyone have their own problem, some just smart enough not to publicised it. If you need someone to talk to, find someone who's going to listen to you without judging you. Don't tell the whole world about it, some might just celebrate your misery.

Never interfere in other people issue, not everyone appreciate your help. Sometime, you just need to let them sorts their shit by themselves 

When you know you should be doing your research but you end up Googling recipe for homemade kuew teow... Hang teruk!