@ mel_fandom I understand. I just hate it when i see a person post something like that showing that they definitely need help and all the people usually do is the opposite - ignore them or just simply say that they feel the same way. I am grateful to see that you're fine. A lot of time I hear that I worry to much for other people when I should care sometimes about myself but... I guess that I'm built this way? -_(^_^ )_-
I have a lot of issues with connecting with other people and self control issues in the past, I hated myself and now it looks funny to me that I felt that way because I love myself. I don't need to worry myself about why the check my real parents didn't wanted me - my friend told me ones :"You don't lose anything because of not knowing them, they lost everything because they don't know you". I have now a foster dad and brother who love me and I love them. ^-^
I hope for a good friendship too, you seem like a really good person a cute and charming little shy dude who just needs some love ^_^