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I really feel like I'm at my brink of existence. I feel, constantly, the need to sway into suicidal thoughts when I realize how my life has gone wrong, subtly, in so many ways and made me this huge insecure, sad, fuck-up of a person.
It's becoming harder everyday for me to want to breathe. But then I decide against suicide, once again being the ultimate people-pleaser I am on all the things that matter.
Pathetic