melcholune

anytime! I do get the conundrum part. personally I think it's ideal to have this app just present in its own place and pace, while we go about in our lives, finding ourselves coming back to this platform whenever feasible. after so many years on this platform, with the graveyard of memories left behind, deleting it seems like some foreign extremism to me, haha. and I'm glad if life has been easier for you currently, I'll hope for the slowness to get gradually steady so you can try to settle down, eventually. speaking of myself, it's similar for me as well. figuring out through occasional ups and downs and hustling my way through. thank you for asking, love. 

that's perfectly understandable and alright. my presence seems to be just as patchy too — I barely check up on this app anymore. we can definitely start afresh again! and I'm sorry to know about that, I hope you're in a better place, compared to the past months, love. may this year be softer and kinder. <3 

and i have no idea what you mean by “especially about this” OF COURSE ABOUT THIS, i very much want to and besides i love reading and voting on people’s books it gives me so much serotonin i feel like a teacher giving out gold stars 

i know it’s so upsetting isn’t it? every time i talk to someone about it they tell me that i should change where i run or what time but i just don’t understand why i shouldn’t be able to do those things you know?

yes yes ofc hun you can share whatever you like as long as you’re comfortable with it, and don’t let anyone make you feel bad for doing whatever you need to do either!

also, hope your has been going well ❤️ (im not sure of your timezone so idk tbh whether it’s day or nighttime for you rn but either i wish you an amazing one ahead)

but at the same time, im trying my hardest to not let myself dwell into the past for longer than necessary bc i need to remind me of the one main thing. its in the past and i cant change a thing abt it. i can think abt it, can reflect on it and take some lessons as well but that’s about it

and see, family aside, im graduating this fall and let’s say im kinda feeling a lil more lost than ever? like im both excited but at the same time i cant believe the years flew by so fast, and innerly i may have some regret due to thinking i could’ve done some more and idk maybe even utilized better than everything

can’t wait to speak to you, hope you are having a lovely morning. 

hope to catch up with you soon, baby! 

and that’s so crazy, i literally just came and checked your account a day ago. 

I guess I was rooting for Colombia cause that’s motherland, and Cabo Verde before they lost but apparently the captain’s got allegations. Honestly I just hate Argentina and don’t want them to win lmfao. You?  

I’ve just been passively watching the games, I don’t really care about the outcome. Soccer is too slow paced for me to care about really. 

And I’m also ashamed at the Belgium v US match I swear it’s a Trump curse.

I missed you too. I’m a bit inconsistent, my apologies. I’ve been up to a few different things the past 3 days and wasn’t on my phone much. How have you been? What have you been up to?

You should definitely listen to Fleetwood Mac if you haven’t already. There’s so much lore to that group, especially involving Stevie Nicks. You should listen to “Silver Spring” or “Go Your Own Way” as good forays into their discography. Incubus is alt rock, I think? Don’t quote me on that.

Cece, are you here?

Salaam, khwahar jaan. Out of the blue, I remembered that you mentioned watching fanaa and kurbaan. 
            
            Now that I can analyze them more critically, I can say that they're all a piece for Western propaganda. 
            
            Are you doing well? And eating properly? 

Khwahar jaan, man khub hastam. Just a little upset with the world. I'm scared to read the news these days. Everyone is dying, just not the ones who should die. 

khoda khoda khoda. As Warsan Shire wrote, "no one leaves home unless
home is the mouth of a shark." I still think about Kabul. A lot happened in Afghanistan. hezaar shaitaan ha mord bood vaqti amrika tashkil shod. 

Honeylove. 

Please. 

Time to return. 

Hope you good tho

Id tell u my full name but mfs reading n its wattpad everyone reasing anything

I was anxious and paranoid ysing the socials some time go and thats why i just keep dying

i wanna squish your cheeks when you come back

i miss you

Where'd my little mama go?