@melpomelody
so apparently the inspiration i needed was procastination of school work as i'm making outlines for that gravity falls fic and some soulmate/superhero au
@melpomelody soulmate and superhero sounds so peak
guilty pleasures are guilty pleasures let me have fun my own fics are too depressing sometimes (pfop) i need a break
i hope you’re doing well <3
@strdst , as well as a college student can be i think LMAOAOAAO but how are you? i saw ur other pjo fic and i'll get to it i swear 😭 junior year's already throwing punches cause every class i have has something due this week
i still think about that time someone began reading pfop and then when i went to their page (casual stalking; the usual) they had made a post with something along the lines of "pjo fic writers give their ocs another godly parent than apollo challenge–"
PFOP IS A GOOD IDEA SUE ME
@CutesyHope , ur right!! i just thought it was funny (even if their post was directed at me and/or pfop lol). and like fics don't even have to be unique imo (as long as you're not stealing obviously); like, sometimes it is just fun to play into tropes (e.g., daughter of apollo with sun powers) cause they're just fun!! also, thank you so much!! promise a pfop is ... somewhere (just give me time 💀)
@ melpomelody I agree. You can do so much with the same setting as long as you're creative enough. And don’t worry about updates! I'll wait as long as needed and still devour the story.
@ melpomelody the challenge in fanfic isn't only to be "unique" but to do the best and aome different with what you have. Apollo children just make really good OCs bc of all the powers he has. PFOP is my fave pjo fic.
tw: discussions of depression, eds, body image issues, body weight
i've never been someone who's the most consistent writer or always on wp interacting with people (have kept the bar low so people don't expect much lol). however, writing & me being on here has become even more scarce since early this year – i'm struggling to write, i'm struggling to have interest in my fics (or even my drafts), & i can tell my depression is getting worse.
there's a lot of reasons behind it, & i won't get into all of it cause a lot of it is very personal, along with being identifiable. i will say a reason is a writing class i took last semester that left a huge dent in my confidence; another reason is that i feel i made some of my plot lines too ambitious. i've never really been a very ambitious person anyway, & i feel like i've set the bar too high for myself – to the point that i'm anxious rather than determined. &, this doesn't really fit (but i can see the damage it's doing to me) is the stuff with glp-1s, the desire for deadly-levels of thinness among some people, a few people in my personal life taking them (along with the countless celebrities) – that all has definitely impacted me negatively.
i won't say i have an ed (as i've never gone to a professional to discuss it); however, i, at a minimum, had & have a frought with food & my body basically my entire life. & so seeing celebrities become as thin as they are while i gain weight (& hit a weight i never thought i would) – not great for me mentally. & it's not bad to gain weight (i want to make that very clear) & it's not good either – but in my head, gaining weight has been categorized as something "bad."
i guess the thesis statment is that i haven't been writing, i'm struggling mentally, feel like i'm falling behind my peers, & prob won't write very much for the foreseeable future. unless i actually just needed to acknowledge these feelings that i've been ignoring for months, which is not what i think will happen.
@melpomelody you're so brave for speaking about this honestly and i'm proud of you <3 take all the time you need, step back from writing, and focus on your wellbeing. i'm always here if you want to talk (about anything, really). also heavy agree on the celebrity skinniness crisis. it got so bad, i even talked to my parents about it, bc it made me so sad to see </3 so know you're not alone feeling that way. even though it's obvious and you know, i'd like to reiterate that jenna ortega and ariana grande's bodies are Not healthy. they've always been skinny, but this is genuinely worrisome. it's not something you should strive to achieve. love you and take care <3
@melpomelody your mental health & well-being always comes first, and, reiterating the above comment, it’s definitely tough but ultimately a good thing to have recognized and understood it <33 take as much time as you need, and take care of yourself, we’re here to support you
take care of yourself, we love you so much <3333
fellow mlp truther hello
@appaloosas , LMAO lowkey my first introduction to fandoms & it has shaped me
i'm gonna say it's more impressive i wrote nothing in july for the sake of my own ego
hi hi, gracie! how are you?
@melpomelody it has been really long, unfortunately. i wasn't online much either this past year. i fear the sophomore curse may get to me this year. i'm doing pretty good tho, trying to get back into writing, but still struggling </3
@sundrcplets , ah rina!!! it's been so long </3 ngl the sophomore curse got me bad last year LMAO how are you tho?
musk getting in that interview and going "well ngos can do it!!"
WHAT'S THE POINT OF THE GOVERNMENT THEN? if igos are not protecting and aiding their citizens – which is the whole reason they're meant to exist – then there is no use for them
anyway him crashing out in that interview is funny – but it's also pissing me off cause he just sounds ... so dumb
is it too niche to have a gravity falls fic
@melpomelody IVE BEEN PRAYING FOR TIMES LIKE THIS. IM SAT.
not at all that honestly sounds so cool i looove that show!!
NOT AT ALL OMG DO IT DO IT
might just revamp my mlb fic to feel something again