𝑺𝑡 𝑨𝑡𝑙𝑎𝑠 ✧

90s Seth Green save me

I would start Buffy finally, but GOD. Seven seasons, and I already know what happens to Oz, no way in FUCK could I watch that

Anyway. This was mainly meant to be a disclaimer of "if I seem super inactive or mean lately, it's not you, I just have a lot going on"

I'm dead inside. Genuinely feeling like shit. Struggling mentally and medically. Uh. Sorry for the super inactivity on here. I usually use Wattpad/role-playing/plotting as a coping mechanism (distraction), but I've been too drained to do even that lately. I should be finishing Christmas presents that I started working on before Thanksgiving, but I feel like such dog shit that I've only left my house to go to psychiatry and therapy, and rarely leave my room. It's about to get worse because my oldest sister is coming back this weekend (Friday or Saturday, I'm not sure) to stay for Christmas, and she always starts problems (if anyone heard how Thanksgiving went, you'll know this is a REGULAR issue with her). So yeah. Nothing is looking up anymore, especially because my current psychiatrist is an old sack of shit who quite literally told me I was lying about physical health issues conflicting with my medication and needing to switch meds because of it. He also told me my autism isn't real ("childhood disease," despite being diagnosed at 19), and has increased the exact medication I said I can't take if I want to fix my physical issues, so I'm losing my fucking mind even worse now.

I should have, like. Taken care of myself. Showered. Done some laundry. But no. 

"Didn't you have a psychiatry appointment" I don't think "stewing in unbridled range for a half hour then seething afterwards" counts as productivity, but okay

Fuck modern medicine, I'm using mushrooms and berries to heal all my problems

The seasonal depression be hitting hard, plus medical flare-ups and the fact my psych meds are ineffective (fighting an 80yo man over it tomorrow, wish me luck) (if I don't text anyone after noon CST tomorrow, assume I got arrested)

Haven't even seen Buffy. Btw. But every reference I see of them makes me drop to my knees, it is unreal. I've only seen three Seth Green movie series, and I've only ever seen Alyson in HIMYM, but I would die for both of them, I do not CARE if they're almost 51 

Like y'all don't need to know that I just realized he's literally the same age as my dad, and now I'm sitting here like, "even though I didn't even know how old he was until like a month ago, was this my subconscious fueling my father trauma since I was EIGHT"

Like y'all don't need to know the Seth Green lore

I'm declaring September 4th my Transiversary 

I'm crying into a ham sandwich right now because "holy shit, it's been almost 14 years that I Knew, and at least 10 since I Admitted It." 

Scott Evil turned me trans. I'm not even joking. I was like 8 or 9, sitting on the couch with my mom and my sister, just thinking "I wanna look like that when I'm older." I came out as transmasc in sixth grade, I think I was 10 or 11, pushed myself back into the closet immediately after. Later on, I decided I was non-binary at 14. Watched the IT miniseries for the first time at 16, didn't even realize it had Serh Green but was still like, "that's a dork ass bitch, he looks cool." Then I saw pictures of Oz from Buffy the Vampire Slayer when I was 18 or 19 and was like, "this is peak gender, holy shit." Then I realized it was Seth fucking Green, so I looked up pictures of Scott Evil in the Austin Powers trilogy. And I remembered. I remembered being 8 years old, being so fascinated with this funny guy with bluish-black hair and wacky shirts. I remembered thinking, "I wanna be just like him."

Someone take me out back with a gun.

Chews on arm. This is Buffy's fault

Someone better remove ****** ***** from my brain, or else he'll suffer even more

I'll fine-tune it later, I just woke up.

Some of the Ghostfaces are even monsters themselves, is the fucked up part! Jill Roberts is at least half on her maternal side, but she still tries to kill them!!! Charlie is a full-blown fucking monster, and he tries to kill them!!! Roman Bridger is a monster!!! The man who manipulated the human boy and his monster friend into monster hunting is a monster himself!!!!

EVERY GHOSTFACE IS A MONSTER HUNTER, EVEN THOUGH MONSTERS MAKE UP MORE OF THE POPULATION NOWADAYS THAN HUMANS. BILLY LOOMIS IS A PETTY ASS BITCH THAT ALREADY THOUGHT MONSTERS WERE GOD AWFUL, BUT AFTER ONE HAD AN AFFAIR WITH HIS FATHER, CAUSING HIS MOTHER TO LEAVE, OBVIOUSLY HE WAS GOING TO HAVE A BURNING HATRED FOR THEM. ANYONE WOULD, RIGHT? 
            
            And, yes, this means that Sam would be at least half-human.