@hyrded ,,
"you don't know that" he sighed. he stuck his dagger into the ground ,, frustrated with the fruitless back and forths. it yielded nothing ,, even if he kept on asking. he was patient though ,, he knew when to probe,, when to question ,, but sometimes not when to stop for his own good. he wanted to know ,, even if it hurt him. the truth was,, he was scared to know. "just .. just tell me ,, rurik" he said. he swallowed hard,, adam's apple bobbing lightly. his skin was flushed as he turned,, gazing into the fire. he held his hands close,, feeling the flames almost lick his hands. he welcomed it ,, in a sense. the feeling of being on the edge,, of having something else to focus on.
"i need you to talk to me. please" his voice came out soft at the end,, trying to hide the pleading note to it. he shook his head, picking up a stick. he broke it in half, sighing as he traced patterns on the ground before messing it up with a brush of his foot. "i want the truth. no matter how ugly it is. what is it,, that is so .." he shook his head again,, narrowing his eyes. "please" he repeated.
