mercy23456

Hello everyone, I took some time away from here and now I am back and ready to read and talk lol.

This morning at two thirty in the morning I give birth to my first son. Atlas James was born weighing 14 pounds 8 oz and 19 inches long.  Happy everything went OK and we are both healthy.

so much has changed since i was on here in january of this year. i met my now boyfriend and right now i am twnetey weeks and two days and i have eighteen  weeks and five days and its a little boy and we don't have a name because none of the names we found we don't like.

sorry i haven't be on here in a while, so much has changed in my life since the last time i was on here. me and my husband divorced back in December  last year  and i move to a new house and i am starting brand new.   but i'm back on here.

Hi do you have any requests for the Volturi? I'm happy to write it for you! 

not here to start a fight but the way I see it biden won and trump needs to stop causeing a issue because he lost. because every person that trump had has gone to prison but him. now ain't wanting to start anything but trump thanking that the Democrats cheated um fact check it's a fair fight and he needs to let it go.

my husband was amost run over because somebody ask if he like trump and she said he didn't agree with how he was doing and they amost run him over. and he had our youngest twins daughters going for a walk. come on now this Is crazy.

the gilrs are asleep and i'm fixing to head to bed. i love being a momma because the moment's i have with my children i cherish because one day there be all grown up.

so i'm so upset right now. somebody  told my twin daughters that there  right's don't matter. are you fucking kidding me they just turned four. hold up now everybody lives matter. just because
          we are white people we have a say and things too now. but to tell my daughters that the hell do you know. i am about fucking tired of everything and anything. that person fucking cross the line. as a white person i don't feel like my voice is being heard. my daughters have doe nothing up cried and cried to the point they made themself sick. my poor babies thank no they hav no rights and can't ejoyed  there freedom.  i honestly don't know what to do anymore. the world is changing and it isn't the world i grew up in.

i have not really talked about this since it happened but i thank i'm ready to.  on oct 23 2016 i wasn't feeling well i took a home pregnancy and it come back positive. we was over joy and sure it seem like it was so sudden but we felt like it was a blessing and we found out we having a baby girl who we picked the name alessandra rae but sadly three years ago today we got the news our baby girl was still born and at 4:56 i give birth to our little girl. holding my daughter and knowing that i would never see her grow up or see her live her life broke my heart. we buried our daughter june 14th and june 17th i tried to kill myself. i took some pills and was going to end everything to be with my daughter. but my husband found out my plan and took me to the hospital where thye pumped my stomach. that was a dark moment in my life but my husband helped me through and i couldn't be more grateful for everything he did. a mouth after i tried to kill myself me and him had a talk where he told me i had two other little girls who needed me and that opened my eyes. i couldn't leave my twins so i decied to work through it. got help and today looking back on it i thankful for my husband because i pushed him away after loseing alessandra but instand of him backing off he pushed back and got through to me. my husband is my saving grace. to all the mothers who hav lost babies know you are not along and it isn't you fault.  sometimes things happen that we can't control but know this . you are not along