Meshuggie

There was a powerless god. She was doomed to be a plaything for other gods. She doesn't know why they do it to her. But all she knows is that they took anything she discovers talent. He made her feel alone. There are moments people despise her. The bible she thought a life saving word turns out a lie to her. Her life is a lie. Now she hates that God she looked up to as a human.

Fucking hate humanity and Gods so much. They made my life hell. Not all of them but its the same.

I hate my family so much. Its like a love-hate relationship

Hi idk when I'll be able to update Godly empress doctor. O3O still don't have proper WiFi connection. 

I might not be able to update Godly empress doctor starting next week because my psychologist told my family I'm not allowed to read books which is such a shame since reading is my hobby. Since most of the things I read are on the internet, my family won't let me connect the internet. It will take 3 months before I even get to see a different psychologist and ask them if I'm already allowed to read books hoping the ban will be lifted.

I am suicidal. There are times I often want to slash my wrist, directly put the knife in my stomach, or hang myself. I literally miss the rope around my neck wishing to hang myself. I am suicidal since I was 7 years old.

Books and anime are only my form of happiness in order to escape my problems so please don't take it away from me.

To me, father and asshole goes side by side. I guess I never really had a good father figure through out my life that the a word got stuck with the f word.

I'm back. My tablet got destroyed that's why I haven't posted for a while.

I think letting him go is better than taking revenge.