Mia B. Geminius

I dunno why I still bother to be on here sometimes haha
          
          instead of fixing my shit 
          
          ah and some character aesthetics which I haven’t gotten to sharing 
          
          My message board is full of my own negativity damn my bad I’m sorry. Nobody will see though or at least I hope. Just writing out irrelevant thoughts of mine sometimes in hopes the motivation for writing will come back
          
          Honestly I haven’t written for months and I’ve stopped posting on social media. Fear of being perceived or seen I guess 
          
          Meh. Life would be so much simpler if we didn’t give any fks because who cares right 
          
          Hopefully something in me will click and I’ll be able to figure out how to improve my story whilst learning how to write properly. It needs a lot of changes but I doubt I’ll get back to writing anytime soon. It makes me sad that what I’ve shared I has a lot of flaws. To think that I was happy with it a while back yikes. The fear of not being good enough has to stop holding me back including the massive headaches of overthinking oof 
          
          May this year be full of unexpected miracles. We’re all gonna be alright <3 I pray for the world to be better, although it isn’t the world that is bad, it’s the beings who are. As humans we are cruel, but good people still exist. May there be more good and less evil.
          
          Anddd I’m rambling. So dumb. Anyway. Enough of my yappin away talking to myself.
          
          I am so embarrassing. Existing is a pain, but perhaps I will fall in love with life again. As for when that will be, I have no idea just like how to fix my books. When, who knows, not me 

I’ve finally made my character aesthetics…but idk when I’ll go back to add those and share. At this point I think I give up. What I’ve written is well…embarrassing. It’s a shame haha

It’s timeeee! For me to depart~ Merry crisis /(>.<)’\
          
          I’ve been falling for so long. With no wings…
          
          SHUTDERFUCKETHUPALREADY
          
          mkay. lo and behold, tis my cue to leave
          
          No stars drawn upon my invisible scars
          
          I wish upon a shooting star 
          
          That even if I can’t find Heaven
          
          I’ll make it through hell by flying

Maybe I can never fly unless I’m falling
          
          Meaning that the fear of failure constantly holds me back. Gotta accept that even if I fall, I’ll end up flying (rising and getting back up again no matter how many times I’ve fallen down)
          
          Hmmmm

Oh dear, I am one hell of an unhinged mess. CrAzYyYy. The Mad Hatter has some competition as I’m going bonkers. No tea party :( Terrific. I might as well recommend my favorite book series. Here we go: Splintered, The Infernal Devices, andddd PERCY JACKSON!!!!!!!!!! I love too many things. I fear if I say any more than those that I’ll be giving myself away aha. What if someone who knows me finds my account? I’ll be doomed. Therefore, I’m glad to stay hidden just like this which is why I didn’t tell anyone who knows me out of shame huhuhu

I’ve got the seven deadly sins and I’m thinking that I’d like to include the 7 holy/heavenly virtues in the future <3 

Welp. I feel apologetic about my pathetic rambles guess I’m quite the yapper in the form of words oof. Never mind then. Nobody answered my question about whether Wattpad will send notifications if I go back to edit my books since there’s a lot of stuff that needs to be fixed. Did look it up though but I’m still an over thinker. I don’t blame anyone tho, I’d just ignore too so not to worry I won’t be clicking the announce button. Just talking to myself as usual bwahaha. I am no one anyway. Everyday is the same but today has been kinda bad. Me and my irrelevant rants smh. I wanna do character aesthetics since I’m better at editing photos instead of writing. I keep saying if….well…IFFF I fix shiz I really hope that it won’t send out annoying spam notifications to any lovelies out there since the last thing I wanna do is be a pain in the behind. Unfortunately I am a pain the ass. I may be negative, however making fun of myself is a weird coping mechanism of mine. Enough of the pity party and nah I don’t need anybody to feel sorry. It’s normal. I’ve been spiraling as of late. The reason I gave up writing is because my mental health got bad again but I came back online here because I do wish to continue…. Idk what I’ll do since this is the least of my concerns. I find that I keep trying to escape reality only to no avail. The problems of the real world awaits. Yikessss I need to get my sht together asap. Saying and doing is a whole different story. When will I act upon my words— can’t believe the year is almost over it’s been the absolute worst and I haven’t planned on existing for this long. At this point I’ll need a miracle. Gotta save myself. I’m always falling into the darkness. One day Imma wake up and be alright let’s goooooo

I’m an embarrassment darn. I should stop losing sleep by overthinking but no can do bahaha. I spend more time thinking than actually fixing  my shiz. But seriously though hopefully I do fix my story. I’m lucky that I have all the time in the world to do that. Somewhere deep down inside I’m glad what I’ve shared hasn’t been found so that I can improve it. Random thoughts to myself 

Hi angels ♡ So sorry to bother, but could anyone please let me know if notifications will be sent if I edit my books? There’s a lot I need to fix. So if I ever do, just wanted to know if it’ll notify or not (Hoping it won’t. Looked it up although still curious)   
          
          Thank you very much lovelies. To you beautiful stars: You’re a miracle ☆ Your existence is a blessing. Know that you are beyond loved. I know life can be difficult, I’m proud of you. Keep flying, you’re more than enough. You are perfect just the way that you are 
          
          I appreciate all of you loves <3 Wishing a wonderful day or night~ My bad for an unnecessary long announcement of annoyance+rambling I’m a WEIRDO— Clicked the announce button again since that other one a few days ago was a dumb mistake. I’ve gotta shuddup damn-
          
          If you would like me to support your amazing works I’d be more than happy to! Do tell me & just in case, I apologize in advance if I’m late in getting back to you. Sending all the love and happiness your way ^.^

I wanna do character aesthetics ugh how come I didn’t even think of that before…. I’m better at editing than I am at writing. Why tf am I suddenly active on here instead of just forgetting about this app. Eventually I’ll go back to being inactive