i never knew i’d be this type of person, who can’t express their hurt anywhere and to anyone, sure i’ve told people things here and there but it’s all useless at the end of the day isn’t it. when you know you’re the least liked person out there, when you can’t have a normal life like everybody else because people are holding u down including your family members. bombs after bombs of sadness i’m having a hard time taking everything in. maybe wishing i was born as someone else, jealous of people around me . i just wanna cry my eyes out. i wish i had people to be happy with and people to talk to about what i like, for them to listen wholeheartedly and not judge me, sharing playlists w me or even watching me and liking me. i shouldn’t be jealous but i just wanna know what it is and why it is that my life is like this. i may have good grades but all it brings me is sadness, nor do i feel like i have friends and i feel the emptiness of never being liked romantically. it really does hurt, seeing people love each other when you’ve experienced nothing of that sort. when you’re seen as somebody who is boring and constantly used for others’ own benefit.
i am sorry to post this, i just wanted to write my feelings here instead of the notes app..
