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Hey guys. . .I just wanted to apologize for not updating a lot and everything. i'm a really fucked up person. I'm depressed, I hate myself, I cut (i really really hate to admit this it's fucked up), my family life is crazy, my parents are always fighting one minute and kissing the next which fucks with my head, and there are arguments going on, recently my family isn't allowed to stay in my great aunt's beach house anymore bc she's a bitch and that caused everyone to hate both her and to feel less love for my great grandfather bc he could have stopped it. On top of all that I'm trying to figure out my sexuality. I think i might be bi but idk. . .
I honestly hate myself rn and it's always the worse at times like these when I'm alone in my room at night, my blade just sitting on my night stand or on top of my laptop. ANd honestly i'm just done with it all. It's fucked up. My whole fucking life it. I'm in love with my friend, she's amazing and i think she might like me too, but i don't even know if she's gay or bi or whatever and even if she was why would anyone want me.
Anyway i'm sorry for this and i know that no one probably read it anyway. So yeah.....