I was given the bare minimum, I never complained, because back then I thought,
"maybe you couldn't buy me flowers or gifts because you don't know that it gives me butterflies."
"Maybe you couldn't flex me online because, it's unnecessary."
"Maybe you couldn't visit me in my school because your school has a hectic schedule and you don't want to waste money on fare."
"Maybe you don't see my messages even if you're online because you're busy doing your projects."
"Maybe you have a lot of accounts and couldn't even give me the pass because you think it is unnecessary and that trust is more important. "
But one day.. I just woke up and realized that I am tired of thinking. I'm tired of defending you to my instincts. I'm tired of making excuses for you.
You can't exert an effort for me because I'm not important to you. That's it. You never give me flowers not because you're not aware, but because you never cared and you're not interested. You never posted me on social media because I was not as pretty as those on your friendlist. You never visited me at my school because you don't want to see me. You don't seen my message because you're bored at me. You have a lot of accounts and never gave me one simply because you are hiding something from me and that you never intended on being faithful to me.
You never cared about how I felt. I felt unvalued, you know. I never cared, and was never interested. And I wished you just told me that you don't like me instead of beating around the bush, uttering sweet words but acting the exact opposite.
You ruined my perception of love.
You made me learn.
You lost me.
