If EDs were about vanity, i wouldn't even have one. I was already pretty, and i knew it.
But when your body doesn't match what you feel, does it matter? Whenever i look in the mirror i don't see myself, i see an ungrateful mentally ill person. I have everything, yet i feel like i own nothing. Every decision in my life was made by someone else, and that will get onto you sooner or later.
Besides, what does being pretty even give you? The only thing it got me was getting sexually harassed by my own family member, who doesn't even see anything wrong with what she did.