Genius89_2050628
Thanks for the follow
midnightpainter
midnightpainter
Things have been so heavy lately. Days are blurring. I feel like I’m falling backwards. Back into a pit of absolute darkness I can’t escape, back into old habits. Ive been stuck in my head and I’m trying to not let this devour me. I swear. I’m trying. But I feel disconnected from reality. I haven’t painted much in a while. I haven’t even been writing a lot. My head feels cloudy and I forget things. I’m just a shell of a person and I can’t help but feel like I’ll just end up being another statistic.
*This is the only place I can rant because my family and friends can’t see this. But I just need a release, for someone else to know.*
**an update for The Hurt We Carry will come soon. Thank you to everyone that reads my stories; I appreciate it so much.**
midnightpainter
@mary4mm thank you vm, you're very sweet. my emotions are all over the place, but you're right, i think its time to talk to my psychiatrist and ask for a therapist. I have been playing the sims 4, which is a good distraction. thank you again, your kind words are soooo appreciated, making me cry lol <3
mary4mm
hey girl, take a break if you need to! please please please prioritise yourself and your mental health, do something you love, go outside and surround yourself with your friends and family. you WILL get through this and it WILL get easier eventually, think of this as a little bump in the road. do self care if that’s what makes you feel better, build yourself back up. you are not a shell of a person, you are smart, kind and amazing. i’m sure you have people who love you who want the best for you and can’t imagine a world without you in it. please get some help if you can and speak to someone, in person, whether it’s a therapist or family or friends. you are NOT a burden, you just need some support right now and that’s okay. i am always here to talk!
bookishfinds
When are you going to update The Hurt We Carry?
blissfullyxox
i love your books so much! do you have any recommendations?
midnightpainter
@blissfullyxox I have a reading list on my profile and recommend any of those! Most are family/siblings :) and thank you, I really appreciate your kindness!!
Zyphra54
Hi thank you sooo much for adding my book to your reading list<3 altho i still hav A LOT to edit, i hope ur enjoying it:)))
Zyphra54
@midnightpainter i rlly love them tooo, ive been wanting to create a love story which is genuine, good banter, n not all lust this that american series
midnightpainter
@Zyphra54 of course, it’s really good and I love Bug and Vera! You have written their blooming relationship really well! :)
midnightpainter
what’s your views and opinions on the main character dying at the end of a story?
fleurfille
I prefer when the death serves a clear purpose past their demise. I feel like the aftermath decides whether it was worth it for me, so I appreciate mid story deaths a lot more. I'm a sucker for tragic stories but if they die just for dramatic effect, my mourning is bitter and more painful. Also like cece_307 said, coming out of nowhere it's js too much to cope with if you've connected with the writing
itzme_aella
OKAY SO I'M NOT PUSHING MYSELF JUST YET BECAUSE I JUST STARTED READING AGAIN (FINALLY) AND I JUST READ ONE OF THE BLURBS OF YOUR BOOKS AND I LOVE IT. I CANT WAIT TO READ IT (I'm a bit slow at the moment tho bc, again, I'm trying not to push myself because I've been in a reading slump for almost a whole year so gimme 1-3 business months T-T)
itzme_aella
I was stalking you because like... I can (not in a creepy way, i legit just clicked on your profile), and your bio says where you're from and for some reason my brain understood that your name is Nova lolll
midnightpainter
what's everyone reading atm?
I'm reading The Knight and the Moth by Rachel Gillig (100% recommend, the gargoyle is hilarious) and then on the side I also started The Wolf King by Lauren Palphreyman
Habibat478
Guys am about to read her books I don’t want to cry but I think am in love already