She/her

"Land of my thoughts.."

She was searching for those little things you know...
She was searching for a hug to ease her pain and calm her thoughts 
She was searching for a shoulder to be there for her always at any time 
She was searching for a kiss to calm her down when she was feeling awful and upset 
She was searching for some kind words to make her feel loved and brighten her day 
She was searching for some sense of humour to make her burst into laughter
She was searching for a little bit of attention from the people she loved and cared about 
She was searching for some kind of understanding from those who mattered to her 
She was searching for a little bit of adventure and precious conversations about any topic 
She was searching for that person by which she could be Herself completely and still feel happy about that
She was searching for that strength for that motivation which would never let her give up on the  things she loved, her dreams 
But honestly the most important thing to search for her was the real meaning of her life "Why was she created on the first place? What is the real goal of the human race anyway  ? "
She was tired of all the shit she's been through all this period
She just wanted to let them all go but it was so hard for her 
She kept trying to push away all those pessimistic thoughts but it was so fucking hard
She over thinked about  everything and that was destroying her mental health completely day by day  
She's been for days, weeks upset and struggling with sleep and anxiety 
She even thought to give up on her dreams because she felt like she didn't have any
Now after quite some time she realised that she started this "battle" for herself, for her freedom and happiness
She started this journey to live a life she would be proud of
Cause she knew by heart that the only thing that would stay permanent in her life would be only her own self.
-Mig