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HEYY TWINN!! umm.. ion know if you remember me but we used to chat before they got rid of the dm feature and my name was evan/ev! i deleted my acc and now im back! so so sorry for ghosting you TT.. hope your doing well! ♡

Tonight.. Yup tonight hurts but tomorrow will hurt more then me

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HIIII IT'S BEEN A WHILE
          I JUST GOT WATTPAD BACK AND I IMMEDIATELY CAME TO SEE IF YOU WERE STILL HERE :3
          (I missed ur stories )

So this is to an old friend on here I just wanna get this off me and idk how besides this so yeah.. 
          Uhm hey stranger we haven't talked in a while and ik that's half my fault I mean you stopped texting me first but I should of tried hard after the ten texts I sent first I don't really wanna let go of you yet but I feel like ur embarrassed of me maybe that's why you never text? We use to talk every day but know you have friends irl and I'm pushed out the way don't get me wrong I'm happy your finding yourself maybe that's my problem? You're going somewhere and Im not but was I just a place holder someone to text when walking by acting like I didn't matter irl? Maybe that's all you wanted and I wish a knew cuz I'm attached to you my first friend you know my fazes things I loved then hate now I wish we could still be us again but you're moving forward and I'm not I've thought of blocking you and just getting it done but I can't.. Idk why I run from you.. ( I guess I'm writing this to say goodbye with blocking them I don't wanna let go of our chat yet I still need them I think

I'm not back for good but I need to let this out somewhere were ik no one irl will see 
          I hate myself. 
          I'm not talking ahh ew I'm gross I'm fucking stupid. 
          I have a ged test October 18 and I suck i know nothing years of people telling me I know shit only for it to backfire in my face 
          Ik you think it's not that bad but I got home schooled at a young age I don't know basic math I failing language arts 3/16 question I got right and the one I'm supposed to know well I can't understand I feel stuck and dumb. 
          I try to study but I can't get the courage to pick up that book I when to pee and started to fucking cry on the toilet
          Even my dad was shocked at how bad I'm doing I just wanna do better and I can't. 
          I tried reading out loud focusing harder waiting tell I wanted to try nothing. 
          I don't wanna disappoint everyone but now I'm scared of myself
          I'm already breaking what if I don't push threw it what if people hate me I can't handle this I'm scared of myself I feel so numb but I'm not depressed I just wanna be away from everything in the dark and never leave I just wish people said I sucked more then I wouldn't be so hurt to try harder and fail idk what to do

Ok guys it's time.. So over the years I've been on here I've loved it all for different reasons some also the reason to me being super depressed but I think its time to go :) 
          I'm for some reason sad 
          I'm not sure why everyone I knew back then is gone and when I get on here it makes me upset for no reason but I need to focus on me I'm about to be 18 
          And I need to focus on my life along with family 
          
          Ill leave the books on here for future generations and others who like to read my 12 year old me's bad writing but that's it I'm sending out a few people texts before I go for good  but thanks for making me feel important some days! 
          :) 

bro tell me why I post my first ever animation meme thinking it was a great idea and within a few hours I got told I'm cringe .. LMAO you thought I'd be sad?? Bro I really didn't even think I'd get a comment let alone two thanks guyssss

@-Katsukis_AssHole-  OMG SAY LESS HI SIS!!! 

@Cutebabyfox17 bro this app makes me so bad I hate it I get depressed so fast idk why but I can't delete it I can't bring myself to but I do log out