Hey, everyone! Sorry I haven't been posting for a while. I don't like Mother's Day because the ones I remember aren't good and I got screamed at by my mother all day because of how childish I am. I am a child, but it still hurts. She invited some immediate female relatives over to happened to be mothers and it just reminded me that I'm not a mom and because of my depression, I may never be.
Relationships are difficult for me, so being a mom might never happen. I didn't get flowers because I'm not a mother, almost every time my mother talked to me was because she was annoyed with me, I spent most of my day trying to be seen by those females who are adults, and I forgot my plan of hiding out in my room until my cousin came over. I always forget and get caught up in hanging with everyone until I'm reminded by something or someone that I don't belong. I hang on my own, watching BTS, EXO, and Stray Kids while I sulk in my self-pity.
That would have been fun, but instead, I got put to the side and my mother had an excuse of why she could simply be mean to me today: today was about her. Happy Mother's Day, mom and everyone else. For many unfortunate ones to go for me and school tomorrow!