millie_zombie

@lovelyocean_22 I’m really sorry you feel like that… even if it doesn’t feel like anything is changing, I’m still proud of you for holding on. You’ve been through so much, and I believe in you even when you don’t. I’m always here ❤️❤️

@millie_zombie hm, I don't think that I want to reply to this question because nothing changed, nothing changes, nothing will change - I'm not alright of course.
            
             that's good, I'm happy for you and that you enjoyed these concerts :)))

@lovelyocean_22 I’ve been doing pretty good! My holiday ended, but I’ve been to some concerts lately and it was so much fun:)) How have you been?

@lovelyocean_22 I’m really sorry you’re feeling this way. I know it hurts, but just the fact that you’re still talking about it shows you haven’t truly given up. I still believe in you, even if you don’t right now — and I’m here, always:))

@millie_zombie well actually I kinda gave up - I posted something in my feed, feeling completely hopeless, it shows how I feel. nah, I lost it. I don't believe in myself and I haven't any faith anymore

@lovelyocean_22 Ahh I’m really sorry for replying late, I’m still on holiday with my family so things have been a little busy — but I’ve been thinking of you! I’m really proud of you for not giving up completely, even when it’s hard. Trying still counts, even when it feels messy. I think it’s great that you’re doing yoga and finding little things that help you brainstorm — those are big steps even if it doesn’t feel like it right now. And I totally get the phone distraction thing too, don’t be too hard on yourself. You’re moving forward, even if it’s slowly. I’m always rooting for you!! ❤️❤️

@millie_zombie aw thanks ❤️❤️❤️ I will try it, I hope that it will end well and without me getting dissapointed with myself again. you just said the words I needed to hear, really. you are so encouraging :) thanks for believing on me!!!

@lovelyocean_22 Hey, I’m so glad you’re back! And don’t worry at all — I totally get it. Wattpad’s messaging system really isn’t the most helpful, so no need to apologize for delays, I promise! I’m just happy to hear from you whenever you’re up for it. Also, I so get what you mean about the brainstorming — it’s exciting and draining at the same time, especially when you love all your ideas and don’t know where to begin. I think that says a lot about how passionate and creative you are though. Maybe instead of forcing yourself to pick the story right away, you could just start by expanding a little scene or moment from one — something small but vivid — and see where it takes you. That way, it won’t feel like a huge decision, just a step. You’ve already done the hard part by caring this much. I really believe you’ll bring them all to life, one by one. ❤️❤️

hello - I'm back again! is stupid but that chat tires me up, not you. now, that wattpad hasn't a pm option, it takes me time to find the messages :( I wish there could be that option again or something, sorry if I'm late to my replies. sometimes, I don't even get a notif -
            
            thanks so much, for one more time! things were better today - I felt way stronger but still, the only thing that I did was endless brainstorming. one of by biggest problems is that I have like five stories in my mind and is it already hard to write, but choosing the one to start with is even harder. I started thinking about going with one first and then I started brainstorming endlessly about another one :( I love all of them but if I keep jumping from one to another, I won't get any further to give them voice and that hurts