Checking this app every few months always feels like going back to a random place in the middle of the woods, a safe place where you just sit and think about the memories you made there. You sit around with your younger selves. I remember 11 year old me discovering this app - reading stupid Naruto fanfictions, I remember 12 year old me finding friends on here and living within fantasies - blocking out the real world and finding comfort in Creepypasta (and) fanfiction. I remember 13 year old me - trying their best to come up with something good to write, yet I kept changing the words again and again and again and ended up barely being able to move forward with the stories, they never felt good enough. I remember myself for the past two or three years missing that time a lot, yet having to deal with the fact it wont ever come back, no matter how much i want to. I dont feel ready to grow up yet though. I miss losing myself in those stories to not deal with my mental health, because now that I dont have them I have to face everything, and often it just gets too much. I miss writing, reading, talking to the same four people who I considered family. But yeah, I'm a few years older now, yes of course I cringe sometimes when I think back or read my old ff's. But back then I was much happier. I hope that soon I can find something - hope i can find more moments like I had back then, so one day I can look back and say "Oh, i'm so glad sixteen year old me found reasons to stay."
