Nati<3

Relapsed today…

Random rant again:
          Why do we have to take state testing? Like who in the world decided one test, a huge test with over 30 or 40 questions will determine if you’re smart or not or if you get to move to the next grade? I get bad test anxiety and idk how to even focus on my test when all my head is thinking “your gonna fail” or “don’t even try to make a good grade, yk your not making”. I genuinely can’t focus while doing it. State testing sucks :c

Guys I took my reading starr test today and I think I did pretty good. I mean it wasn’t hard and the essay wasn’t as bad, but there was this one question where it asked “what is a word similar to kerfuffle”……WHAT THE HECK IS THAT WORD LIKE I DINT KNOW SUCH A WORD EXISTED. I just put mess and hoped for the best becuz IT WASNT IN  THE DICTIONARY AND I WAS GENUINELY TWEAKING ToT

HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY!! Don’t forget, God loves you so much he was willing to give his one and only son to die on the cross for our sins!! Don’t ever doubt how much God cares for, he has a hugeee plan for you. And remember that even if you feel like you’re too far from Him, you will never be. He loved you so so muchhh.God bless yall!!

Random rant:
          I am TERRIFIED of getting married. It’s joy that I’m at the age of getting married cuz guys I’m still in school but like wdym Ima sign a paper saying me and my partner are going to be together. Like what? I personally don’t like titles. It makes things feel official and official sounds scary to me. But also if that mean I have to live with my husband for the rest of my life how will Ik he won’t be same guy he was two years ago to two years far. Like what if he starts being @bus!ve and then I have my kids under an @bus!ve dad for the rest of their lives. Ik people are like “just tell someone” or “call the authorities” but you got to think that it wouldn’t be that easy. Getting married is supposed to be beautiful and it is but to be it’s a poverty of paper you and your partner signed to already say what y’all know, that y’all love each other. 

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY STRAY KIDS AND ILLIT

Guys I’ve been grounded for a while and just got my phone back </3
          Like my parents were getting on to me so MUCH. And idk what I even did. Like I’m just tryna survive school and thrive bro. Butttt but have it back now and IM SO HAPPY!! 

OMGGG I KOVE HYUNJINS NEW SONG ITS SOOOO GOOD!! it NEEDS no be released in Spotify

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HYUNJIN!! WE LOVE YOU WITH ALL ARE HEARTS BEAUTIFUL TALENTED KING

OMGGG GUYS MY MOM ALMOST FOUND OUT ABT WATTPAD…..IM NOT SUPPOSED TO HAVE THIS. SHE ALMOST WENT THROUGH MY HIDDEN ALBUM AND SAW IT BEFORE MY BABY BROTHER DISTRACTED HER